the story thus far

2007-01-19T17:54:00.000+08:00

I'VE MOVEDDD ON!!!!

hehehe, no no..shahandfira is still a thang~..but the thing is, i hop into the bandwagon when I was in Kedah doin my internship..Shah is based there ~~so do d math why i decline all d great offers from great companies to serve a small company and based in kedah~~.so we practically lived together..hey!!different house but same taman ok!i'm in d condo, he's in the terrace house..and it's kedah for pete's sake, u must be crazy to attempt 'pengkesedudukan'...i am a private person, but i love to boast to d world about my love,bleyy??..so,there u have it,this page...but, after i finished my internship,there's nothin to boast about, as we seldom meet due to our commitmentssss...last last, aku sorang je mengomel citer pasal aku yg plain jane ni...so i guess i'm gonna stop here, and continue this blog, when shah and i got married,as a celebration of our love till death do as apart, and a gift for our generations,for them to witness the embodiment of a true love,and as the proof of an existance of a once great true love...eyceywahh~~~!!

"sayang, till death do us apart, and in heaven u'll have my hands to"

"kalau kita tak kawen, harap i boleh jumpe u balek 'di sana' nanti"shah once said to me out of d blue,and it made me cry...*cryy

till then, PEACE OUT!-

Make love,not War
-29 Zulhijjah 1427-end of another year, a beginning for something great,ensha Allah

p.s:: yes,i have a new blog..a blog where i can be anonymous so i can realllyy really speak my mind, so u ppl cant judge me...In your Face!!

2007-01-14T16:40:00.000+08:00

ahhhh result dah kuar..alhamdulillah, elok result gue,walaupun missed target by 0.07..takpelah takde rezeki,insyaAllah rezeki tu kat tempat lain ~~slb ke?~~..kenapa i diam je?sbb malas nak cerita ape ape..karang bercerita ade je golongan PHD~~perasaan hasad dengki~~ yang buat mission kan?drpd i bg uols buat dosa bermission, baik i tolong uols kurang kan dosa,kan?

so ape updet?tade ape, duk rumah bina badan je...ari ari, tido>bgn>masak>house chores(laundry je,kemas rumah,akak i terer.*matila malas kemas rumah katanya)>bittorrenting tu sajork..tak pi shopping pun..malas nak bergerak...bile im in melaka, i'm very homely,i guess sbb rumah melaka ni resort style, so seronok rilexin rilexin*cover line, semakin gemuk...my mom je lah, born n bred kl girl, yg balek kl evyweek..so duk melaka lame lame, nanti die pening..hihi.. contoh situasi,minggu lepas...thurs:akak bgn tido kul 11 call mak akak tanye diamana;"mak kat Shah alam"..akak pun pi shopping siang tu,balek malam,mak akak dah tido...esoknye:akak bgn tido kul 11 call mak akak tanye dimana "mak kat midvalley"..akak pun pi shopping balek malam, mak akak dah tido juge...yes, she can drive by her own,dr mana datg nye kemachoan akak,of coz lah dr die..die dah biase independent lady, since zaman kerjayanya(tp takleh lupe bile driver die tertinggalkan dia kat RnR lepas amek die kat KLIA,kecoh satu melaka).ahahahah

so my shopping hanya dijalankan earlier my holiday,di mana i had a lavish weekend escapade di bukit bintang, dan brangan kaya,naik taxi pun premier,dah gile ke?..tp worth it la untuk menghilangkan stress setelah saya exam SEPULUH subjects. *&^%*()$$%..pastu duk rumah diam diam..sampai la d day kuar result... sebab terkilan missed target by 0.07,akhirnye i kuar rumah bersohping mengubat hati yg lara bersama my oldtime bestfriend,cik nazihah...ai telah meroyan kepada die,membebel sbb result menghampakan sedikit, lalu die mengajak i shopping to nurse my broken heart katanya...aaa, akak kalau dah terstart shopping,abes laa,..sejak dat day, 3 hari shopping berturut turut....terpaksa tip-toed masuk rumah, sbb takut kene jerit dgn ~~funder~~ ayah...yesterday;

scene baru sampai rumah dr shopping,emak jalan terkedek kedek nak cpt bukak pintu sambil muke senyum simpul
emak: uuuuu shopping shoppinngg(mata tertumpu kepada bagsss)
me:ayah mane mak?mate melilau datinnnn, i telll u!!kasut ai belii cantik takk??
emak membelek belek hasil 'tangkapan' dgn girangg..
tiba-tiba

"HAH!SHOPPING LAGII??""
akak terus pecut lari naik atas masuk bilik, bile dgr mcm bunyi petir..biarkan emak akak take over..chihihi

on friday, naz and I had our dinner kat dis korean restaurant yg baru bukak nih..TMM katanya, tourist kan suke dtg melaka yg historical ni, so melaka not dat bad lah kalau pasal international hospitality ~~nak nak bile naz ni asyek la pomot ikan bakar bawah kerajaan negeri tu~~...and korean fud itu SANGAT SEDAPPP!!!lg sedap dr kat kerinchi punyee..mine was, bulgogi chicken ape nta, naz punye aku akan igt sampai mati, bibim bap chicken..hahahaha...malam tu akak takleh tido,mengenangkan keenakkan makanannya..aku mmg pencinta makanan,namun ku bukan beruang..hehe..rase nak pegi lagi esoknye..doaku termakbul, bile emak akak suh bawak anak kawan die ni jalan,namenye ialah "COMEL"..hehe taklah, nurharyanni, tp mmg dipanggil COMEL oleh her family, since we are family fren yg rapat,so terpanggil die comel juga..so,aku pun tanpa resentment, dgn rela bawak die kuar, walaupun terpaksa bgn awal..si comel ni, richie rich katanya, takleh kuar cm normal teenagers..unless akak or driver die or senang citer trusted ppl of her parents la yg membawanya...die citer, kawan kawan sekolah ajak die kuar actually, mak die tak kasi,as usual..pastu mak akak lak pi bergayut dgn mak die malam tu,pi kasi idea untuk die jejalan dgn akak..haih!tp takpe, i rela, sbb dpt pi serang korean restoran itu..tp yg lagi best, auntie ani,mak comel tu, kasi duit for our outing..si comel ni letak lak purse die dlm handbag aku, die kate"amek je baper baper dlm tu"..lagi la seronok gue..~~hihihi...tp ape pun, akak mmg suke melayan comel nih, die matured for a 15 year old girl, tak vain and berangan..hihi..and shooping ativiti berjalan lah,of coz..lalala

so, about my future career lak, well i got numbers of offers..including MAS..MAS so far offer gaji paleng tinggi ~~lg tinggi dr petronas sikit~~..tp all those offers aku reject,pastu lament around ckp takde duit kan..ntah la, malas betul...nanti aku cakap korang ckp aku berangan, tp i dont have d heart to work at all unless if it's petronas or slb...reason being, im very commited to wat i really wanna do..tak suke hop sane hop sini...i like to have it a home-run..cam lev life aku gak laa,biar dipukul badai tsunami banjir kilat pun, akan ku teruskan jua..persistance katanya..i hate failures, so i hate doing sumthin yg for kejap kejap ni...lagipun,akak penat dah belajar 18 tahun non-stop..akak january intake i.e akak dipilih masuk UTP mase form 5 lagi with trial result..tahun tu pulak SPM lambat abes sbb raya,so tak sampai sebulan akak kat rumah, dah kene belajar,akak igt lagi mase tu akak tgh beraya kat rumah auntie,adek akak call cakap dpt offer..ihh choi!tak sempat nak bersuka ria..bulan 5 kwn2 akak celebrate d joy, dpt masuk uni, akak dah passed the time and tgh FINAL EXAM,bleyy??..result spm pun akak tak dpt nak amik dan lompat-lompat di hall sekolah, ade mid term test katanya..kejilah, kalau bukan pasal petronas sogok akak dgn skolershipnye,neverlaa aku mengorbankan mase bersuka ria dgn belajar kan...so knp akak nak tunggu slb or petronas jer?reason for petronas;sbb saye dah bonded for 10 years, so tunggu 6 bulan pun, still akan keje gak kan...just d matter of waiting sajork...reason for slb; sbb im not d office type kinda girl,, i like to get dirty, i like keje susah, i like keje tgh panas, i like guna spana,ketuk sane ketuk sini, luke sane luke sini..i love challenges, belive in me, i can do anything...at home pun, i do the cookings, the laundry, the light bulbs, sampaila the repairing..and etc shah baru terer how to ganti disc brake keter,akak sgt berharap dpt belajar nanti...for those yg kenal akak, taula wat are my capabilities, and during my internship, u have no idea what i did, sampai dpt title kerbau...chihihi..lagipun mak akak kate"awak dah tentu dah ade keje,it's either slb or petronas,just d matter of time, tunggu jelah..jgn kacau rezeki org,kasi peluang rezeki tu kat org lain"..so she said it, akak anak yg obedient katenye..hihi

so ermm, bile lah gaknye slb nak panggil ai neh...anfaal(who works there) status akak umpama, nak pegi bercuti, dah sampai destination, dah turun plane, skang nak cek imgration je..begitulah analogy nye...skang ni nak tinggal jumpe manager of dept yg akak telah di identify kan tuk pegi...kalau die berkenan dgn recruiters nye choice, dapat lah akak keje tu..kalau die feeling competition dgn akak,terpaksa lah akak cari stage lain..mrasa!!haha..tp ayat tuk sedapkan hati, akak the only CIS(computer and information science) yang berjaya ke final stage ini..dan among 254 candidates,yang CGPA melethop pun ramai,excluding me,yang CGPA 4FLAT pun ade, gile ke budak tu?,all in all, tak sampai 20 pun dpt pi last stage ni,,so arap arap akak tak akan disia-siakan,ucapan untuk slb,"anda takkan mampu untuk melepaskan permata ini"..wahhh feeling ANTM katanya!!..hehehe

oklah, asar pun dah, akak igt nak tahan air wudhu sbb zohor td lambat kan*oops..tp nampak gayanya akak dah tak tahan nak kencing,akibat makan petai jeruk byk sgt..hihii,walaupun akak born and bred di england dan bandar,tak penah gi kampung dan mmg takde kampung, nenek akak pun pure kl,akak menten suke petai,jering,cendawan kukur etc.tp petai and jering and ikan keli tu akak baru pikap mase intership kat kedah,tu first time i duk kampung life,and i loveeedd it!!first time pi kenduri tepi sawah, makan lauk kenduri ikan kering bagai..walaupun panas,tapi akak suke life sane..host kenduri:"awak ni org bandar, tp pandai makan ikan kering ni ye"komennye,setelah akak bantai 3 pinggan..org dah abes makan akak tak abes lagi...tp ikan keli akak leh makan setengah je, dr dada die ke kepala, akak maseh takleh makan,akak tgk pun takleh sebenarnye,tp akak pure pure tak nampak,and pegang ujung jarije..tp balek utp, akak menten makan ikan keli ari-ari..sedap skalss!!tp stgh je, so how??cume durian je akak takleh pikap lagi...bukan feeling omputih,dah cube byk kali, tp tak boleh laa,d nearest i cud get is tolong kopekkan durian, akak kan kuat cam kerbau..hehhe..ok ppl..toodless~~~

2006-11-13T20:25:00.000+08:00

exam fever~~~

tema berangan sem ni:
COMPUTER GRAPHICS A
ACCOUNTING A
COMPUTER NETWORK MANAGEMENT A
JAVA B+
PROG 1 A
COMPUTER AND INFORMATION AGE A
HUMAN COMPUTER INTERACTION B+ (ye tau ni paper senang, tpi coursework dapat35/30 je sbb tak dapat dtg satu lab sbb sebok FYP,trus hilanG 8 percent, bleh??)

UPDATE 13/NOV COMPUTER GRAPHICS 9-12
hah paper stressful mcm ******!!!bleh jawab sumer tp stressful nak mampus!!..tambah dgn pressure nak dapat a, sbb coursework 47/50..sgt bersusah payah sem ni untuk dpt coursework setinggi itu walaupun subjek paleng susah, tp lecturer sgt baik, die beria-ia aja sampai faham, walaupun sumer muke ternganga dalam kelas..mind u bebudak multimedia, ini bukan CG macam korang buat, ttba leh jadi animation..ni CG gune hardcore OpenGL, nak buat line pun, coding sampai 2 page..it's coding plus add math yg dah tingaal 5 tahun..aaaa.sgt stressful ok!!markah 4 je, tp jalan kerja 3 page..bleyy??tak sempat nak tgk org sebelah lansung... 3 jam menulis,berfikirbagai nak rak, dan mengire mcm dah gile...soalan bukan memory dumping lansung..sumer berfikir..so disebabkan ai stress buat final tu, ai trus pegi shopping untuk menggembirakan hati~~ttba, ai main angkutje 3 org classmate CG ai,yang tak bawak duit dan ic untuk bershopping,cik aida,zubyye and midah..sorry girls, dah u ol tumpang i pegi exam,trus tershopping skali dgn i..yea memule nak lunch je kat ikan bakar,tp maseh stress walau dah melakntak..so tanya my girlfriendswat to do nak menggembirakan hati..berfikir tuk 5 saat..ttba 4 org serentak "shopping!!!"..hiks, gol & gincu sgt kan??..lalu, bergegas ke lah we all pergi bershopping di tgh hari weekday..so hasil shoppin itu, ai boughT myself a bag,soooo glamorous,wellat least to me..it's gold sling bag with manik manik, very the liz clairborne katanya..i'm so liking it!first lay eyes, trus jatuh cinta, trus berangan bimbo paris hilton, tanpa berfikir panjang,"i want dat bag!"katanya kepada salesgirl tu...mrasa i feeling feeling paris hilton text ayah "today's paper is so stressful, soi have to get myself a bag"..i HAVE,katanya!!..tu manipulation sebenarnye, sbb nanti duit i abes, ayah i bebel..tp kalau i cakap awal awal kene spend sbb sumthing stressful, nanti di kemudian hari duit i abes, ayah i tak bebel, sebab kesian his lil princessstress..hiks!gelak gelak cumil...oh!,my pdaphone also dah dapat new house, its furry furry flowey flowey!..yay!!takdela case die leather lagi, baru nak girlish, taklah maskul sgt..hihi

front:

back:

glOrtho(0.0,1.0,0.5,0.0,3.0.0.5)-pandangan jauh in OpenGL:

2006-11-06T09:52:00.000+08:00

setelah berakhirnye segala test ke projects, assignment , class sumer..aku cam dah blank ape nak buat, walaupun final exam next week...so let's see some random picturess...

melantak kat satu gerai kat aloq staq...best..makan best, pastu kat tepi sawah lak tu..haih, rindu nak pegi kedah..1st time duk kat kampung....suke environment kampung..ai takde kampung, tak penah tinggal kat kampung pun...datuk nenek ai pun rumahnye die petaling jaya, dekat assunta hospital tu..jiran die,org austria..kampung ke tu?

scenery di office mase intern, bile dah abes field work, and bile boss tade..nyiahaha

ni le keje aku mase intern, panas~~~~penat~~~~~asyek cari signal yang main nyorok nyorok, suke hati die nak lari mane, pastu aku gak susah nak kene alih balek antenna tu, choi lah!!..dah la arituh besday shah, aku dah plan surprise dinner dgn die kat restoran berputar menara alor star tu..

kelam kabut akak, siap kan bunge, merasa aku nye clerk kene buat OT, tlg buat kan bunge, leyyy??

di sini lah dinner ittew, at the end of it, f&B manager tu bawak keluar lighted up cake untuk shah surprisely(aku dah dtg siang tu kasi, hehe)..

shah and ayah, golfing..

si hussin, butler setia aku kat madinah hilton..aku suke air fresherner custome made tuk hilton je,tanye die leh beli kat luar tak,die kate tak,tp die gigih kasi,hihi..dat's in front of our royal suite, besar nak Mampus!..tan sri mohd kate, leh main kasut apek(heelys) dlm tu..chihi..

ok!,mud study dah datang...mari study JAVA!!!

2006-10-30T12:04:00.000+08:00

chan~~~~kita bersiaran dengan sunglass besar bonda..gittew

selamat ari raya to all, taqaballahu minna wa minkum..ape nak citer ari raya?biaselakan sumerang pun same, bezanya kuih buat, lemang buatm dgn kuih tunjuk dgn lemang tunjuk la kan..chihi, of koz, family i tidak ketinggalan untuk tunjuk menunjuk ni..hiks..then pagi raya bonda gue, kejut meracau racau, kate dah lambat dah pagi raya ni, suruh mandi turun makan sumer, ai pun kelam kabut lah..rupenye rupenye baru pukul 5.50 am, bleyyy??mrasaaa, sahur di satu syawal..then, ayah ai pulang subuh dr masjid, we all pun makan la juadah raya,(motiff juadah?)...pastu gi mesejid,

anak anak hj zul

dgn jaja, my good old friend,buat medic kat gajah mada, mrasa arituh earthquake naik plane TUDM, mriah~~dpt berangan belakon hollywood...hihi

family pixies di masjid ayah..

ayah dah tak tahan lapar, mak gigih suruh sumerang take family pictures, mrasa ayah buat pose protess katanya..hihi

ayah dan ibu~~ayah dan ibu~~ itulahh permulaan kami~~(lagu arwah sudirman)

yaaa, prop kita tahun ini, garden table..hihihi

outdoor 2006 family pic

ayah tunggu anak anak turun mintak mahap, bleyy??anak anak terlupe, dah naik atas dulu nak salin ~~costume~~ baju

motif sape suh ko dok russia?skang merasa menangis sorang sorang time raya..

seb baik kau kawan lame aku, kalau tak ai dah letak phone ni, ai nak nak pegi kutip duit raya lah~~~
sejurus kejadian banyak sgt kawan kawan ai mengadu domba tak dapat raya di kampung halaman, brangan nak raya dgn snow, i trus off phone seminggu raya, la la la..hihihi

eh, iklan petronas katanya!!ayah jgn lupe pakai lampin tau!!,brani kau nak dinch ayah kau jadi kuncing kurap dah tua nanti?den tak brani doo, merasa den tak dapek harta dio nanti..*oops matila munafiq...

ape motif gambar ni?nak bodek bawak balek utp ini?:

rase rase nye, kalau ai bawak ferrari merah ittew atau porsche itam ittew, pak gad nak saman ai tak?

aahhh, niece ai buat protess, ai lari dulu naaa~~~

2006-10-18T15:41:00.000+08:00

ahhh penatnye saya~~~,

harini hari yang paleng fully occupied, not even single hours left with no work...first of, i have java presentation at 9 am, well it was simple, sbb subject budak 1st year kan, pale into comparison dgn aku budak final year nih, the presentation went well, in fact we got extra marks sbb gune advance features..that were not done at all by the others, the lecturer pun impress, and tanye ade belajar ke pasal JSP before, i said, only learned trough the net since the past few weeks..then at 12.30 have an interview with halliburton, a postpone interview actually..halliburton called me for an interview last week, in kl..there were also other interviews invitation, but all 2 were in kl, last week..i have to decline..because it's in kl, and i'm just to lazy to allocate my time for just interviews..cheyy,diva kan??hihi..so besides those 2, halliburton also called, again i decline, reason being, i;m too busy with my studies..so this halliburton ppl, Mr.Patrick, said, he will re-arrange the interview in UTP,for my convenience..waa cehyy, diva lagi..so tadi was my interview, it had to be today, i wanted to postpone, sbb ade 2 presentations today, but, the HR people will be only be today, sbb kat utp ni halliburton nye office only RnD...oh well, takkan nak berangan diva lagi, so interview je lah..it was not that formal, and Mr.Patrick was a very friendly man, he's a golfer too, when he noticed that i'm a golfer for my state, he said"oh, if u are hired, maybe we can go for a round or two"..hihi...i wanted to say that there's a possibility that i might be hired, because he already mentioned the starting salary, which is wayyyy more than PETRONAS,almost the same as technip and schlumberger..la la la..he did mention also, in one month time,if there's no respon from petronas after i graduated, call him..ahah!is dat a job offer coming to my door?fred, to put too much hope, biyaq pi laa~~~..insyaAllah..ahah, talking about petronas, Mr.Khairul, from PFK, informed that my resume are already in PFK's HR..fuiyooo, very unexpected, i just had this 'berangan' to work in PFK, just so i won't have a long distance marriage with shah as he is working in loq staq, and i have no heart to work in KL, as KL tempat aku berak kencing bagai, so nak la venture into new places, and cheaper of course, biyaq banyak cash, jgn banyak hutang..hihi..alhamdulillah, rezeki bertambah baik nampaknye sekarang ni, hope it continues to ebcome better and better day by day...zalina, my long lost good friend, pun dah forward my resume to her manager in carigali..dalam banyak banyak, takkan satu tak mengena kan, harap harap begitulah..insyaAllah..

so after the interview, my Final Year Project presentation pulak..it went well also,harap harap dapat A..insyaAllah..ahh lega, sumer kerje dah siap, skang boleh concentrate raya, and final exam, yay!!alhamdulillah..

ppl asked, why i have been so murah rezeki, senang saje, live life to the fullest, lepak lepak, dan whatever shit comes in your way, jgn melatah, dan always look at the bright side..org kate, lagi banyak bende terjadi,lagi banyak bersabar, lagi banyak rahmat Allah..sbb, rezeki tak datang bergolek kan?mesti la nak kene test dulu, tgk camne, baru tuhan nak kasi kan?..so itulah..my misi kehidupan, rilex saje, org kacau kite ke ape ke, rilex saje, mmg rase unfair, tp ape nak risau,Allah kan ade, kite rase saket hati siket at one part, nanti kite akan rase senang hati yg amattt sgt at another part...setakat sekelumit flaws tu, tak jadi kudis pun...kuasa Allah lagi besar to overcome those nuicanse kan?..berdoa sajalah, kalau aku salah, Tuhan tunjukkan lah, Kalau aku tak salah dan teraniaya, my prayers not to hurt those ppl, tp murah kan lah rezeki aku dan org yang menyayangi ku..miahahaha..rilex sajork, no big deal...yang penting, bersyukur dan redha...amin~~~~

2006-10-04T16:39:00.000+08:00

do you believe, kalau niat kita baik, ikhlas dan murni, betul betul pure, and you have been good,Allah akan buka jalan, no matter how?....aaa,menyingkap misteri ramadhan katanya..hihihi..so last sunday punye tazkirah ramadhan, ustad dawi cakap pasal zakat fitrah..katanya, selagi tak bayar zakat fitrah, selagi tu puasa pahala kite, tergantung antara langit dan bumi..so jgn tunggu sampai last day ramadhan baru nak bayar zakat..then in my heart, terfikir, has my dad bayar our zakat?..at the same time ustad dawi cakap"aa scholar pun baru masuk, yg dah besar besar ni, belajar belajar lah bayar zakat sendiri, tak usah susahkan ibu bapa, zakat hanya 4.50 di kariah utp..makanan sehari pun lagi mahal dr tu..yg perempuan kalau tamau bayar zakat, cepat cepat la kawen"..pastu i was like, eh girls leh bayar zakat sendiri ke?i thot mcm dependent kat ayah kan..so right at dat moment, i'm determined to bayarkan zakat for my whole family and hope dat my dad havent paid them yet...i've always love doing something for my parents...

Back in my school years in a boarding school, we have to wear a court shoes to school, feminity lah konon..so i had this one sembonia shoe to wear, and i wore it sampai bertahun, dah koyak koyak, still, aku staple kan join die yg koyak tu..to me it was no big deal,sbb tuk pakai gi sekolah je pun, beli cantik cantik buat ape karang aku gune tuk berlari ke dining hall jugak kan.. baik bagi duit tu tuk aku shopping foods,back then scarcity sgt foodskat stf(still are,hihi)..till my father came to visit, it was a weekday, sbb die ade meeting di JB..so he met me in my school uniform, he saw my stapled shoes, and tanye,"eh dah koyak, d u want a new one"..i declined the offer...he came again a few weeks later, after a meeting, asked me again the question..i still declined..and i went up to my dorm, i saw him wiped his tears waiting at the side of the volvo..i didn't know why, it's either die kesian tgk kasut aku koyak rabak, or maybe he was touched i didn't want anything from him and i just made do of whatever i have, hence die terigt mase die kecik kecik dulu..he was very poor back then, die kene jual kuih, and dapur rumah die masih tanah and his school's short was made from sack... when i was small, everytime i wanted something, mase tu, cam grand gile LUNA color pencil. he would remind me he only had a pencil from std1-6,when the pencil became short ,up to a point u can't grip it anymore, die sambung dgn cover pen..sedih kan?he always remind us to study hard, and die takde harta nak pass down to us so dat we will live in wealth after he is gone..so raising us being educated person is the only 'harta' he will pass down to us..

his mother, my grandmother,always tell me his story, that they were very poor, and my dad has always been very ambitious, when he got 1st in class, he would come running looking for my grandmother in the dusun, and said"nanti dah besar,zul buatkan mak rumah batu"..and now, he did, he made a big white bungalow for my grandmother..but too bad, after few years, my grandmother became very ill to live in the big bungalow alone..so in a nutshell, i was raised to not to live in wealth, and independent, and whatever i want, i must work for it..and i have always wanted to serve my parents, can't wait to work so, i can give them some money, although setakat celah gigi je comparing to what they are earning..rase nak buat kan them a big bungalow, although i might end up a bungalow that is sized to my bedroom je..nak give them good cars, although they can buy a better car than i might afford to offer them..tp, dat's the idea kan?to balas jasa...bile dah besar ni, aku seboleh boleh nak serve my parents..i remember, this one day, my dad wanted a chicken burger,we were at Medan Gopeng..tp siang siang buta mane la nak carik..the car key was with him...so tamo bagi die tau aku nak beriye gi carik chic burger for him sbb of cos die cakap, "aa takyah lah".. i walked around to carik jugak chic burger tu, which was like 500 - 700m away..he said apsal lame sgt, i cakap ramai org..hihi..moralnye disini, aku mmg sanggup buat ape saje for my parents and my sisters..this semester, i promised my mother i want to pay the road tax...my mother kate ade duit ke, i cakap ade..tp duitnye will come from aku berikat perut la kan, makan megi je...sbb, my PDAphone buat hal balek, i did not ask my father to reoair it for me, alhtough he did offer, i said it was nothing and minor, i can pay it on my own..but truth is, it was HUGE amt of money..so, baruuu je monday tu, credit card aku dah abes bayar, because of that stupid PDAphone ..but then again, it was fine and i am willingly glad to do pay the road tax, sbb dapat kurangkan burden...

so anyway, balek pade cerita berzakat dan kebesaran ALlah tadi.ape motion nye?aa d u believe kalau niat kite ikhlas dan murni, and u have been good,Allah akan bukakkan kan jalan kan?..so during this Ramadhan, i took the opportunity of the devils being locked up, to be as angelic as i can..because there's nothing can influence me now, and i dictate my own personal being..alhamdulillah, i went to the masjid almost everyday for almost every prayers, and try to be as baik hati yang mungkin,preserve my aurat as preserve as i can, talk and think as nice as i can..all in as sebaik muslim as possible..and i'm liking it..hidup semakin tenang and serene..and i hope, by being as i am trying now, after Ramadhan, i'll keep on being this way..i dread to make any sin, because as a girl, my parents are responsible to all sins i make..dah la my siblings are all girls, if we get married, all our prayers for my parents, terhalang oleh our husbands, x pegi directly..so mase tgh bujang ni is the chance i can pray for them, and kalau ade dosa, doa tu tergantung di langit saja..:(..and god forbid, if they are not here anymore, i don't want, because of me, my parents will be punish dgn azab kubur yg maha pedih..sob sob..i learned that, even if they are dead, and i'm still alive and still making sins sebesar zarah pun..they will kena also..tidakk~~~

so bile aku dapat tau, girls pun leh bayar zakat sendiri, i trus call up my dad, cakap this year i nak bayarkan zakat for the whole family..it was 4.50 per person, ape lah sgt kan, duit tu untuk ke jalan Allah jugak...tgk wayang, shopping and et.c lebih dr 4.50 boleh pulak kan? my dad puzzled, he was like "heh, betul ke?".he refused the offer, but i insisted, he said dat, cam inmorale sket lah, aku belajar lagi, he's earning takkan aku nak bayarkan.. kalau nak, aku bayar sorang je lah..aku agreed..but still tak puas hati, i wanted so bad to serve em..so i told him i want to pay for my sisters as well..so he will only pay for my mother and him je..he reluctantly agreed..so the next day, monday, when i'm about to drive to the atm, nak mek duit bayar zakat kan..my mom called, i told her i nak bayar zakat for the sisters, my mom cakap"alahai, susah susah je, biarlah ayah pay for u, afterall ur elaun money, is from ayah jugakkan"..hihi, yela skoler aku tak masuk lagi, so, duit die la kan..i was like, a lil down, sbb tak dapt nak use my own earning to pay d zakat kan..suddenly!right after i hung up d phone,dapat msg from student support services to collect cheque, elaun my contribution mase convo tu..

aaa, alhamdulillah!!!see, tu satu proove yang Allah akan bukak jalan for anything we do kalau ikhlas and jadi baik..i was so happy ...and trus call my mother cakap i'm gonna pay the zakat from my own earnings..hihi so, tak jadilah bayar monday tu, sbb nak menghalalkan cheque tu dulu...

and today, i went again to the atm, and the cheque dah clear, so i withdrew some money, to bayar zakat..and then, tgk my balance, memandangkan aku sonok dapt cheque, aku asyek soping saakan la kat pasar ramadhan kan..hihi..pastu dah terperasan, alamk terlari budget sket, nak bayar road tax nanti...tp, tak kire nak bayar jugak zakat..so dah withdrew, pegila masjid for kuliah zohor and solat zohor kan, kirenye lepas semayang trus jumpe amil nak bayar zakat lah,..then abes je semayang, check hp tgk ade msg..dr student support services jugak, suruh dtg ofis collect elaun lagi, this time for dinner petronas yang i wrote an entry bout it tu...aaaa, alhadulillah lagi..rase terharu sgt..Allah dengar hati aku, well HE always do..tp rase sgt tak larat, when HE vividly shows how much HE loves me..sob sob...both of the allowances i didn't expect it..coz i just wanted the certificates to penuhkan my clear folder..haih, maseh lagi terharu dgn kebesaran dan kasih sayang Allah s.w.t...so dgn gembira dan excited nye aku bayar zakat for my sisters and I..

when i uttered "inilah wang bagi menggantikan beras fitrah yang wajib atas saya dan tanggungan saya tahun ini kerana Allah" i felt this chill down my spince, and hidung aku yg selalu tersumbat and my lung dat can except too much air, trus rase ease to breathe..hihihi..the feeling is undescribeable...one, i felt great, i have contributed a lil for my parents,although just tiny miny compared to what they have done and can afford..two, i have contributed to my fellow brothers and sisters to have a better aidilfitri, and hope wit lil money i gave, their aidilfitri would be more meaningful, and last and foremost, i felt soooooo greattt, that this time i have contributed a lil that i have ke jalan Allah yang diredhai...alhamdulillah... and with hope, segala dosa my sisters and i, akan diampunkanNya..aminn

"Ambillah sebahagian daripada harta mereka menjadi sedekah (zakat) supaya dengannya (zakat itu) engkau membersihkan mereka (dari dosa) dan mensucikan mereka (dari akhlak yang buruk), dan doakanlah untuk mereka kerana sesungguhnya doamu itu menjadi ketenteraman bagi mereka. Dan (ingatlah) Allah Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengetahui."
(Al-Taubah -9:103)

2006-09-25T15:34:00.000+08:00

hai uols~~

today 2nd ramadhan..seronok rase kat bulan ramadhan ni, sume org berlumbe lumbe kumpul pahala...tadi zohor kat masjid pun ramai org, selalu baper kerat je yg muncul..tpi, best mcm mana pun ramadhan di UTP ni, how i wish aku di sini menyambut Ramadhan,

this is an actual picture yang aku snap dr atas hilton, pada musim haji yang lalu mase semayang jumaat lagi 2 hari nak wukuf di makkah..meriah kan??

ujunggg tu was like 10 km away dr masjidil haram, bagaimana?saf atas jalan raya tau!

anyway,rindunye rase di hati utk kembali ke sana, last Ramadhan aku di sana was like 5-6 years ago, haih~~

shopping raya di sana pun best jugak, sbb designer labels collection die takde kat M'sia..anyway, bagi sesiapa yang nak ke makkah, nak shopping, sile pergi ke Souq Al-Azizia..to get there kene naik taxi, sbb die dah kuar dr tanah haram...

anyway, ai tulis entry arinih, just sbb, i'm hungry!!!akak tak dapat sahur dgn enaknye pagi tadi, sbb budak junior housmate aku dah makan sumer sudu yang ade dlm rumah tu..sentap!(aiseh ade sudan busuk duk seblah aku lak skang) tak dapat ai nak makan sultana bran ai, terpaksa makan sekeping roti je..seb baik sambal ikan bilis mama shah yang sedap tu ade..oleh sebab itu, ai dah terkenang-kenang, makanan di rumah.. pasti sedappp sekalss!!

ini adalah item2 yang diperlukan untuk masak lunch pada hari khamis yang lalu

before picture, untuk roast asparagus

aaaa enaknyeee roast asparagus, lamb roast dan potato french salad ittew...

i wish i'm home right now...skang kat UTP, bukak pose kat masjid sajork, sbb dah alang alang org bagi makan free, kite tolongla bagi pahala kat org tu..hihihihihi*matila sep budget katanya...ok lah, nak sambung study untuk test wednesday..daaa

kendu tak yang berbaju hitam ittew?bsc, in dakwah, university islam madinan uols, any takers?hihihihi

2006-09-23T19:33:00.000+08:00

last tuesday ade dinner kat utp,
thihihi,digital story telling katanya.
it was the
mane ai tatau..

dinner tu ala pasal ape ntah, pasal PETRONAS sponsor 5 million for program anti-dadah kat m'sia ni, belia benci dadah la konon..so seperti biase, ai suke je dijemput ke bende bende mcm ni, dapat makan best free..hihihi.mlm tu my camera died on me..so tak dapat la nak amek gambar sewenang-wenangnye..yeke?so let's share some picture that i have..

empunya camera

dgn hadzwan,member aku yang paleng selenge and annoying to be with..oops..berangan YTL Co. dinner..tp PETRONAS, kire boleh la..hihi

cantek kan view?tu UTP's very own 35 million floating mosque

ni full view dr back view, taken from UTP's event co-ordinator,if i may say so,(sebenarnye akak pun tatau ape, but his troop and him did a very fineee job to the islamic exhibition gallery)

my good old fren,en.apau,same same ronggeng dulu, tp skang jadi UTP's student disciplinary exec.bagaimana?

apau and cik dih....arituh ade org nampak muke apau faceless, pagi pagi buta yang gelap..mcm ni ke rupenye?

tgh ucapan pepanjang jela, aku takleh tahan, saje je simpan perut nak melantak mlm tu, so pegi luar kat tempat the caterer prepare foods,vley?mmg nafsu badak sgt kan?

hiks, kalau apau leh jadi exec disciplinary, ai nak berangan jadi pakar motivasi vley?hihihi

matila bulan pose ni kene turunkan 40 kilo!!

designer walkoff katanya, org dah siap cabut table-cloth, tak reti reti nak balek?berlari lari ai pergi meeting plak pastu..anyhooooo,

"akak mengucapkan, selamat menyambut RAMADAN AL-KAREEM.Minta Maaf Zahir dan batin..Jgn ponteng puase tau!Semoga kita sume mendapat rahmat, dr bulan yg mulia ini.Mari berlumbe-lumbe mengumpul pahala, bulan ni sumer kali 7 tau!..Enjoy fasting~~~"

2006-09-20T12:00:00.000+08:00

I MISS GOLFING!!

My auntie who came over to utp yesterday for the MDEC&PKNP talk(which i didn't go when compulsarily must go).She was one of the director sumthing sumthing i donno..so anyway, she asked"bile nak datang rumah auntie so we can have some family gorunds of golf, u are reciproval to in Royal Perak kan?"...haihh, if only i have the time to spent 4 hours of golfing..i miss gold badly! the last golf play i had was last year's UTP convovation golf tournament in Clearwater Santuary Golf Club, Batu Gajah..I was in the same flight with Dr.Zainal the rector, Doc Mat, En Azlan exam unit and one more en razak kot...it was exteremly fun!*yela sbb aku main free, UTP/Doc Mat bayarkan the 250 fees..buggy fees was also free...that was the last time i played..during the semester break, i didn't have the time and my waist sprainted after some practise swing at the driving range...aaaa rindunyeee nak main golf...rindunye when i was in the state team, well, aku takdela terer sgt tapi the centralised training was fun..dgn the boyss and girls..my last MSSM was in Sarawak at Kelab Golf Sarawak..the fairway was kinda easy for me in comparison from my homeclub...homeclub aku jauh nak mampus..tapi still aku tak champion la..player dr Sarawak dapat..sah sah la home club die...duduk kat hotel grand continental rasenye, sponsored by telekom..main main kejar kejar kat hallway...it was crazy!!seronok bebudak time kan...mase MSSM tu ade caddy ni baik betul payungkan aku all the time..rase cam princess lak..hihi..aa those were the time...since masuk utp ni, tak dapat selalu main golf..kalau time sekolah, asal petang je aku kat golf club...sbb d nearest club clearwater is not my reciprocal, so nak main sekali merasa la 200 hengget..dapat main golf pun bile doc mat ke dr zainal ke dr.bob ke or any other staff yang bermurah hati nak sponsor aku nye green fees..dulu awal awal masuk utp, aku 'menebas' kat depan utp tu dgn shah..tapi shah dah takde, aku rase cam org gile lak 'menebas' sorang sorang..hihi..BILE NAK DAPAT MAIN GOLF NIHHH???!!NAK MASUK TOURNAMENT!!!NAK TURUNKAN HANDICAP!!!MAIN GOLD SERONOK WOOOOO!!!SAPE CAKAP GOLF BORING??MIND-CHALLENING TAU!!besides main golf ni bagus untuk mengumpul contact..sbb u'll meet a lot of ppl kat padang tu, dr setinggi-tinggi pangkat org pun ade..and main golf ni cam hisap rokok...ko tak kesah sape, ko budak kecik ke ko tan sri ke ko still main bersama..sbb main golf la jugak aku kenal tan sri rahim noor.. mase aku interview tuk masuk UTP dulu pun org petronas tu,"ooo u are a golfer?"bile die tgk sijil aku..mase aku interview petronas recruitment lak "ooo, u are a golfer?" bile die tgk resume and sijil2 aku..mase aku gi mane mane lak,i fit in d crowd of those big-big ppl sbb "ooo u are a golfer?baper handicap?"..moralnye di sini, main golf bagus, die mcm jadi ko punye PR secara tak lansung...takyah promote diri lebih lebih..hihihi..haih...cepat la grad!!nak keje kat melaka je!!sbb aku leh main golf hari hari!!keje kat kl tak best!!tak dapat main golf hari hari!!..sentap!!

haji

2006-09-15T18:46:00.001+08:00

~~Road to Haj'06~~

akhirnya, aku buat jugak post pasal aku gi haji arituh kan?.hikss..tgh kat rumah ni with 1mb connection rajen aa..dah balek utp..haihh..plus nak dekat Ramadhan ni, hatiku meronta ronta nak ada dekat Madinah..ala al cinta Madinah (cinta madinah i pun di situ..hiks)..dulu time sekolah bleh la, sebulan Ramadhan di sana pun takpe..skang dah masuk u tak dapat dah..haji arituh pun kene ponteng few weeks of study..lepas ni kerja pulak..haih bile lagi dapat berRamadhan di sana..:(..pegi time lain tak best...to me, it's either Ramadhan or Haji..that's it..time tu je yang best..feeling~~btw nak cerita in detail the joy,laughter,tears etc pegi haji ni akan jadi hikayat 44 hari 44 mlm..so mari kite photo blogging sajork...my family nye quota were in the last group..bile aa flew off?tak igt dah..tapi kire lagi brp hari nak wukuf laa..dlm group ai, ade brapa org je yg best and happening..sbb lain sume dato' dato' kekwat-konon-ko-high-class-sgt..ade sorang akak ni, menantu dato ape ntah, kekwat betul..ko igt ko sorang ke anak dato'?*matila dituduh riak.. i tell u, feeling pegi haji ni lain...take it from me, pegi umrah time ramadhan ke, pegi umrah raya ke, pegi umrah every year ke,still pegi haji feeling tetap lain...no words to describe..this time, aku tatau asal, nampak masjidil haram dr jauh dah rase lain..rase betapa kerdil nye diri..tapak je kaki dalam masjidil haram, dah rase lain dah..aku nampak je kaabah tu terus mencurah curah air mata, bengot bengot mulut aku tahan nanges, sbb takut termeraung sambil tawaf kan..haih..trus sambil tawaf dah lupe segala doa neh, padehal doa tawaf tu mcm dah at the back of my mind kan..hanya igt "ampunkan dosaku je"aku repeat that and only that sepanjang panjang tawaf..haihhh..konon act dah umrah banyak kali, dah biase...ha mrasa, pegi haji tgk, lain ok!!..so anyway tu baru citer first day..kang tak study aku kang..so mari kite tgk pixies~~~

eh motif ttba gambar rizalman dulu?pegi haji kaa pegi fashion show neh..hiks!he's in my package..mrasa gi melontar pakai sling bag gucci u olls!

ok ok kembali serius..

di kelana jaya, si dia melambai ai sehingga ke akhir bayang..sob sob, sedeh uolss part parting neh..semua jemaah check in kat sini sajork..nehi KLIA.

dalam hall kat kelana jaya tgh dgr taklimat..then from here we ols akan naik bus di escort oleh polis trus sampai kat runaway sampai depan pintu kapal terbang..mrasa~~

dalam bus, tgh feeling sbb kiri kanan diescort polis bagai..jalan dr kelana jaya sampai kr runaway tu cam bapaka ku punye je..mrasa lagik~~

dlm saudia airlines..kalau gi haji sume kene naik saudi..ade bilaterral aggreement kot..pilot kendu!ahaks..tp food die dinch skek, MAS lagi best..and MAS leh main game..aa yelah name pun gi haji, takkan nak berentertainment lak kan..tapi pilot die akan bacekan doa naik kenderaan, dgn doa segala mala, first nampak bumi saudi lah, doa mendarat lah, selawat lah, pastu nak landing die berkali kali meminta merayu we ols, doakan tuk die nanti and kirim kan salam die pade Rasulullah s.a.w...aaa touched!calon~~~~..

landing je kat jeddah, dah takde mood nak amek gambar..penat ok!!we ol landing kat terminal haji, bukan kat airport king ape bende ntah tu...punye la kelam kabut..arab ni mmg tak gune..patut la tak maju maju..tapi team Tabung haji gak bagus!very the well managed and organised!..malaysia boleh!patut la menang award..so anyway, tu gambar dlm bus bile baru sampai makkah, belakang tu dato'ramli mahmud, mayor Shah Alam..duduk sebelah bilik ai sajork die makkah..die cool nak mampus..sporting tau!!..bini pun cun gilerhs

both pictures di atas tu, org semayang keliling bas kiterang i.e atas jalan and we were like kilometeres away dr masjid..kiterang sampai time asar..and mase ni dah few days b4 wukuf...so berpuluh puluh juta umat manusia dah ramai kat bumi Makkah skang..azan je, trus suke hati je bentang sejadah ok!!kalau kat mesia cube la buat mcm tu, mrasa ko jadi roti canai kat tgh jalan tu..punye la penuh saf

hey!!!motif aku membuang masa???!!haiyoo!!next week banyak test ye!!..erm nanti lah sambung lagi..rasenye cam nak bukak satu blog lain je..ku abadikan sebagai kenangan ku di sana..hiks

mana ade stampede?kiterang rilek je leh amik gambar lagi...ellehh, korang je over..ngengade, time ramai sumer nak buat, time tade org tamo buat lak...

ok ok gi study skang..daaa

haji

2006-09-15T18:46:00.000+08:00

2006-09-07T10:44:00.000+08:00

warning:this entry might offend others as banyak bende yang riak takbur dlm entry ni, tp on my defend, ini blog aku, aku punye pasal la nak cakap ape dlm hati aku,temanya kali ni:Who the hell care?hihihi

hah, akhirnya i tulis blog...walaupun ade test petang ni..because of some idiot yang tamo kalah...i just dont understand kenapa ade sikap nak lawan ni..it makes me laugh so hard rase nak terberak 2 kali..so immature..maybe i'm just so melethop, there's just to much dark green colour of envy...just because of some stupid job offers being offered to me..oh come on, get a life...rezeki aku, rezeki aku la kan, rezeki ko rezeki ko la kan..i dun give a whole rat ass, sbb kau dapat keje melethop pun, aku bukan nak pau duit kau, tumpang gembira sjork..kalau aku dapat keje melethop pun, aku nak belanja kau ke?..hihi...memule, i just thot bende ni memain, just some immature act, tp bile sampai arinih, aku cam rase cam sgt kelaka, sbb that person, kuar statement dapat offer dr shell..yela aku dapat offer ape la sgt kan, cikai cikai je...tp, tahukah anda,itu baru offer tahun ni je...aahahahahha. tahukah anda juga, sebenarnye aku dah dapat offer dr shell, tahun lepas lagi, when i won the shell gourami business challenge in asia pacific yang being held in beijing, china?..ahahahah right back at cha!!!mrasa~~, but who the hell want to boast about dat??tahukah anda juga, i've been offered to work in london and dubai for a few reknown banks last year..just because i've won the young CEO award in singapore?and still who the hell care to let anyone know,well just a few who were around when i won those awards la kan..sbb to me, it's my rezeki, rezeki aku rezeki aku la kan, rezeki kau rezeki kau la kan..at then end of the day, kalau aku dapat jagi 4 ribu as starter i still don't give a whole rat berkudis ass sbb i'm just not interested sbb aku dah penat belaja, dr sekolah lepas spm, tak sempat break, petronas dah cilok aku masuk UTP, and i don wanna trus keje..sbb, i know my dad can give me more than 4k salary a month + my mom who is a very very generous person, added up, it will definitely more more than 4k a month..i've never ask them for money since i've been sponsored by petronas for the past 5 years..*oh ya btw, aku dapat full sponsor sem ni, aku ade kecoh kecoh ke kat kau?nan ado kan?*so now, setelah menjadi anak yang baik belajar, perform, aku antar report on time, in fact, selalu hantar awal, i make my lecturers love me, well, sorang je la kot marah kat aku..hihi, i made a good rapport with people,cube sebut name aku, sampai rector pun kenal and call me personally ajak main golf kan with other lecturers and staffs..student mane in this campus or anywhere else, yang kalau lecturer die nampak, lecturer die akan peluk die, ha?sape lagi student yang dapat previllege as much as i do, yang leh dapat sticker anytime, sbb ade good rapport kat security office, and yang dapat amek guest house UTP padehal tu tok staff je for her parents sbb ade good rapport kat management..student mane yang leh anytime gi the dean's office and amek kertas sbb takde kertas nak print, and gune photostat machine suke suke hati?btw, itu baru life aku kat utp, life aku kat luar lagi, aku leh duduk kat hilton madina ke mane ke, bebile aku nak,aku leh dapat streamyx anytime i want, without ever using my dad's or mom's influence, influence aku pun dah cukup, aku leh kawn kat dewan SUK suke suke hati jugak bile bile aku nak,regardless kat selangor or melaka, aku leh call mayor shah alam datuk rahim tu, at anytime i want even nak mintak tender project or just main golf, ingress hll nye chairman pun suke hati aku, tan sri rahim noor pun bebile aku nak main golf dgn dia, and the list just goes on..aku tak suke org tau status family aku tapi tak main la setakat parents datok ke tan sri, org main la segala datuk nenek ~~aku~~datuk sedara and nenek sedare tan sri puan sri kan?im such a legend , so dont hate me or even hate yourself,darling..and yeah,aku tak mintak duit mak bapak, so i think now it's time for me to rest after non stop studying, aku nak habeskan harta mak bapak aku..again, even if it's 4k salary job offer,i'm not interested sbb i wanna gossip with me mom 24/7, ikut die holiday around d world, and live off my dad..mrasa la dapat nyanyi lagu "gucci i got it, prada i got it" dr urban xchange tu..mcm rumet aku ni, rilex sajorkk. takde nak kecoh kecoh tanye pasal job offer aku, and aku pun takde la kecoh kecoh nak tanye job offer die, padehal die anytime je leh keje dgn petronas kan, regardless gi interview ke tak...die nak keter ape ke baju ape ke or what so ever, petik jari je, but still, who d hell care kan?as long as aku bahagia duduk dgn dia satu bilik...i love her so much, sbb aku mmg suke org yang tak sebuk jage tepi kain aku...so am i, die nak gi dating ke nak gi mane ke nak buat ape ke, suke hati lah...at then end of the day, i know her very well, she knows me very well, when im in trouble when no one i can turn to, i'll turn to her, and likewise...we can be like not talk to each other for like weeks, but when we actually talk, its as if we have been talking for the past few weeks..can u c what i mean? eh motif lari tajuk?..so anyway, kesempulannye di sini, kubur kau ke rezeki ko ke, tu ko nye hal, kubur aku rezeki aku jamban aku, tu aku nye hal kan?and im just so ignorant i still dont give a shit if people know about my dark past.. and who the hell still care?org nak judge aku or discriminate aku ke?who the hell still care?there's no secret in my life, even my darkest darkest past my parents are well aware of that, and they still love me unconditionally and i still get my shopping fund every shopping carnival so who the hell care?i don't need any people who judge or discrimanate me. as i dont discriminate others gak, ko nak main bontot ke, ko nak tonggang arak berbaldi baldi ke, ko nak pegi church tiap hari jumaat pad pukul 12-2 pm walaupun org paderi pun tgh tidor time tu kan, who the hell cares?as long as ko terima aku seadanya and ko baik hati, aku pun terima ko seadanya dan berbaik hati..and i dun give a bontot anjing pun, if u are attempting to let the whole world hate me, sbb i still dun give a whole bontot segala binatang kat dunia ni, for as long i have the love from the Al-Mighty, parents,sisters and husband...even if those people no longer love me, i still dun give a whole rat ass, sbb i still have the love yang tiada tandingannye from the Al-Mighty,kan Allah kan?i lev You so much, You have given me a lot, and tak tau camne nak balas jasa budi You..so anyway, to sum it all, here are my job offers:*tetapkan?ko nak sgt aku boast kan, ha amek kau.
2006
1.PETRONAS: carigali
2.PETRONAS:Motosport
3.PETRONAS:Mitco
4.Kuwait Bank
5.Commerce Group berhad
6.DSM, Distribution
7.Tanjung Puteri Golf Resort(jg club manager ye, bukan waitress)

2005
1.Shell Global Support
2.Islamic Finance Institution,Dubai
3.NetWest,London

right back at cha,biatch!!

kembali insaf selepas bersifat riak takbur sesama manusia, maafkan diriku, Ya Allah dan sekalian umat..

2006-07-15T18:39:00.000+08:00

AKU DAH TULIS POST SIKET NYE PANJANG, DAH UPLOAD GAMBAR SIKET NYE BANYAK..KO BOLEH SHUTDOWN!!!HANJENG!!!SENTAP!!!SUDAHH~~

2006-07-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

ALAMAK!! TAK JADI U OL~~ SO HOWW???

2006-07-08T01:16:00.000+08:00

hihihi tau tau dah lame tak updet..sorila u oll.. mak banyak bende lain nak dipikirkan...lagipun takde ape cer hot nak di storykan..balek rumah cuti ni ala ala jadi pompuan sejati...duk rumah memasak sajorkk...so apo nak tulis? takde pape, kite buat photo entry je lah nak? ok mari mulakan dgn pixies mak pergi menunaikan haji...lets~

http://w7.photobucket.com/widgets/BucketStrip.swf" quality="high" bgcolor="ffffff" width="400" height="100" name="BucketStrip" align="middle" allowScriptAccess="sameDomain" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" flashvars="url=http://w7.photobucket.com/albums/y296/firazul/&name=al-haramfira">

btw, ni test entry. mak firsttime gune bucket features ni..yang ade slide show tu..kalau menjadi..melk letak bebanyak lagi eh...daaa

2006-07-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

hihihihihi,im backkk..cuti dah dekat sebulan lagi 2 menggu nak abes dah pun..tapi im so busyyyy..busy apa tatau..bertunang and honeymooning ke?la la la..hiks...anyway, will start updating my long lost forgotten blog ni yang dah bersawang ni starting from blaek haji..since tu last post was about kan?ok lah daaa~~tungguu~~~~

aaaaaaaaa

2006-05-09T18:58:00.000+08:00

miss me??hiks

Well well, it has been a loooooooongg while since i've last updated..ala tak de saper heran pun kan ~~except kak siana, hiks~~..erm naper ek, prolly i kinda tooo bz,konon FINAL YEAR!!wihuu, next monday my final xm starts, then 5 more months to go pastu gue nak jadi penggangur yg sgt mengangr (ayat ape tu?)..before procceding to my Msc in october next year..herm, so any story morning glory dis semester,u ask?of coz ade banyakkkk..among all:
1.Queen of the night for V3 Day Dinner
2.Perfomed in 2 major event both choreographed by sum1 yg hebat
3.Got highest in one of my subject's mid term test ~~compensated by ade subject yg kantoi~~
4.Being labeled a stone cold bitch sbb tak reti jage hati kawan
5.Met new friends
6.Terjatuh mase tgh perform depan VIP.blerghhh
~~7.Being proposed,and getting enggaged verrryy soon,hihihih~~
7.I naik bus town to balek utp for the first time!!yay!!!mak pegi medan kidd u olll!!clapss clapsss
8.DAH BUKAK BRACESSS!!!!
9.Dah dapat laptop baru ganti laptop yang kene curik tu..hihih..

had my batch dinner last night, but me and roomie didnt go, being an anti-socialist we say..hihih..tak rase rugi pun, sbb it's a farewell partay actually, tapi we all extend..wakwkawkakwk..plus i heard the food sux dah la mahal, the coordination and management pun sux, and the crowd sux, oopss, tak happening..well dats what i heard..
missing home badly..miss my mom the most and me dad..nak balek, tapi no time and fuel now cost just too much...okeh!dah magrib, nak semayang,,tatau la, skang ni cam takde idea nak update blog..tapi i promise u ~~i zzu~~ i''ll fill u guys in every single thing happened in this semester during my semester break eh..now lets just share my random pictures..hihihi..aaa wish me luck for my xm peepsss!!!

vain gile mekap 5 inches nak gi wedding yg tgh panas,hihihih..ye saya vain!!

met my long lost senior druing that wedding

aaaa bukti kukuh!!saya bukan A.O.K.S *~~anakorgkayaspoil~~ seperti yg dituduh,saya mampu dan reti naik bus town yg engine nak roboh..siyesly, i was so proud of myselg, senyum je all d way nak bas..

my gorgeous dance group

dah habes show!!gembire!!sbb tonite's show i tak jatuh!!hihii

Lom,my good friend who also performed that night for Gamelan team,gonna graduate..gonna miss u a lot buddy,siyesly

respect budak nih, sgt terer main drum

dayat drummer hebat lagih,mase satu team keroncong dlu asyek tgk die main drum je hiks

dan lagi!

dan lagikkkkkkk~~~

dierang dinner dah abes mase garek nak jam tak reti reti nak balek..guy+artis terhebat UTP katanye*matila sha marah

En.Aziezudin~~encik ke?~~ mak andam~~ayam~~

mase tgh kene mekap

dgn si Isa Al-Husam entrepreneur berjaya katanya

aaaa cant wait to finish my xm and get homee...ai miss them very muchhhhh..last jumpe 2 months ago, except for my dad whome for a meeeting wit the D.O last week..tgh homesick neh..a lil sumthing i did a few days ago, sbb mase tu rase nak drive je balek rumah, tapi hanye mampu buat pic collage and text me mom sbb dah kul 3 pagi..hiks *rupe belajar oversea padehal kat 'toron'to jahss, balenye tak reti reti, tp nak komplen homesick, so how?

WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE!!!I REALLY NEED TO GET THE HOLE IN ONE!!AMIN~~~

warm up session sometime ago, before golfing with shah, my first play mase first dtg kedah dulu,agak segan, sbb the only girl there...pakcik2 cam tgk lain mcm..tp lepas tgk my shot 200m hiks,rasain,tu pun naseb je ok tapi muke menten cool..a few game after that, when i already felt welcome kat club org, ppl said that i had a nice swing..hik. yeke?tapi tulah, selalu gak org kate, tapi sebenarnye swing je yang cantek, bola ku tetap bersimpang siyor~~~hihi,bak kate my coach when i was in the state team time sekolah, gaya tu penting~~hihi..aaa cepat la balek, nak main golf~~~~sayang, jom lawan!!

Euphonious 2006

2006-03-27T14:33:00.000+08:00

Euphonious 2006

Last Friday, utp had and event called Euphonous(shit i donno how to spell it).It's like a small concert,talent-time thingy,battle of the band mcm tu laa..best gilosss!!!KUDOS to the organizers...hehe,,im sure UTPians really enjoyed the hell out of themselves..so dah terbuktilah, UTPians takde la selenge mane..thihi,,last time we used to have this every sem, but under certain reasons, they banned it..well i have no comment, although there were full of dramas la the journey towards menjayakan euphonous ni..well, u know rakan masjid and stuff..seriously i have no comment..afterall what they did(organizers kate sabotage,katanya) were right la kan...so, serious i dun want to judge...im not in anyone side...sbb aku agree of what they did,alhamdulliah..bangge anak2 muda yg reti berjihad..tp,at d same time, aku pun nak gi gak concert nih...thihihihi...sooo diam sajorkkkkk...out of 6k UTP students, near to 2k came, nak penuh la chancellor hall tu...berguna gak chancellor hall yang bercost 14 million, with its sound system only, RM 4 MILLION,for other than Convo,exam and konsert raihan..hihi..feel gile sound system die..anyway, since im now in the mood of nak kurangkan bercakap,coz of my dislocated~~running~~ jaw, leads to malas nak bercerita, so takde mud pun nak type....so i just want to share some photos..all in all, it was really damn funnn&happening (balas dendam tak dapat pegi tiesto)...hehehe, and also of coz, when u have ur darlings and beloved frens around u ..love~~~~oh by the way, my tugas that nite was jadi manager for the dancers..awaahahhaa

the opening act yang best bak kate juwita suwito,about to start.

My dancers~~~..hihi

The last pose..

me dgn ~~hantu~~the dancers before the event started..

The crowdd ..crowd pun happeningg,,memulaa diam je, sbb respect lecturers and vvip kan, pastu haaa ape lagii,, truss jadi concert...nari tak engat nye..hihihi,,kat upper floor lagi takde segan silu dah...yeahhhhhhh!!

The dancers and beloved frensss..lev yu oll..

My Favourite Huggable Adorable Adek!!

My Dancers on the big screen being interviewed(depa buat cam concert la konon,bawah big screen to are the emcee, after perform, kengkonon nanti di interview mcm kat TRL LAA..HIHI)
habes je,sumerang garek nak amek kat stage, tak sedar diri, lecturer sumer adee

Housemate Deariesss..wearing all white to show supportss

Terkejut dgn heroin pontianak harum sundal malam 3..mas, yana and i

The housemates and the housemates to be,ibn black..hehe

Fun!!fun!!fun!!..alahhh sedeh nak gradd dahh!!

Juwita Suwito!! as VIP,judge, and performing artist that night...suare die sedapp gileee(tp mcm aku yg artist kan??thihihi)..hermm, so far sumer artist mlaysia are much shorter than i am without heelss..except nasha..so boleh la ye aku jadi pesona nona or olay white inspirasi mu..hahahaha

doc mat (Dr,Mohamad Halib),pantang ade gig, nak jugak die perform..huhuhu,kewlness!!mcm ramli sarip,dgn white hair lah white janggot lah,,kewll ye perform die nye lagu wajib by guns and roses,accompanied by again, the lendary silent noise!!..u rawk!!so anyway, congratz to kimi and the band, The diminished..malas nak puji2 lelebih nanti awek die pasan...hehe..tapi suare u mmg sedap kimi and u look mcm brandon boyd..thihihi...every participant hebat hebat belaka, ade steve vai, vanessa mae sumer ade..i like the legendary "silent-noise" sbb performed a fusion of classical and rock, they performed vanessa mae nye lagu yang rock giler tu..hebat betulll...tapi sayang tak menang, sbb hardcore sgt..hihihi
heh, i wish i could say more, but iguess, mood aku tuk mebebel pun hilang semenjak di diagnosed with TMJ .. struggle tau nak bercakap, dah la aku mmg penglipur lara..mmg tuhan suruh aku senyap sket gaknye..nak bace surah mase semayang pun struggle..tapi makan ok pulak,,menten jee..thihi tapi lambat sket lah..thanks guyss for putting up with my lembab makan and always tunggu without any complainss walau keje banykk..lev u guys!!..thihi...ade inofficial after party,for certain people..tapi PnC..u cant just tell every lil thing dat happen in your life now, can u?hihihihi...beshhhhh!!!!will not forget it for the world!!*matila izzu jeles lagi..hihihihihi

p/s to izzu: makan hati la kau takde kat UTP arituh...ahahahaha

2006-03-21T14:53:00.000+08:00

My Best Friend's Wedding

ahhhh it has been 7 years since i last saw him.he still look the same,and laugh the same, and of coz kalut as usual..(eh i think, complexion ko dah canteklah, ke sbb ko make-up gak?ahaks)..hehe, and thank god, im a tad taller than him now,tthihi..i went to his reception and he looked all bliss and happy and whatever words can describe JOY with his wonderful lovely bride..demm dat's sumthing i ought to be jealous about..sbb aku nak kawen gakk!!haha..hermm, lame gak ehh tak jumpe..7 yearsss..but it feels, just yesteday, i was upset about sumthing, and he wud put his hand around my shoulder and said, "jom ice-cream!"..i had a hard time growing up(still are) and i guess because of that i always keep myself private and can never seems to luahkan my perasaan to anyone, kept it all inside..maybe it shows when im sad, and i really hate it when ppl start asking,"r u okay?" and all sort of those coaxing thingy..but when actually, i really wish i could have someone to talk to..with him, he knows me best..as i said, he always knew when i'm upset and all he did was just, look into my eyes for like 5 seconds and "jom ice-cream"..and i'm all gooood..rase mcm dah telepathy all my sadness..eheh, thank you for always being there mate..had such a wonderful child+teenage years with ya mate!..heh, good old times..we were very close indeed, he had my back, and likewise..we wud spent countless hours together, if not on the phone, hanging out,kadang tak buat ape, duduk je kat bench keliling elevator kat concourse KLCC tu..what a waste of time eh?but back then, it was the best thing to do kalau tak nanti mcm cacing kepanasan kat rumah, feeling incomplete..ever heard a saying something like,"a best friend can sit for hours or day long on a swing not talking to each other but when balek, rase mcm dah borak lame dah bla bla bla" sumthing like that..i forgot what it's actual words..he was my confidant, my shoulder to cry on, my devi's advocate, my best friend..well, to put it into picture, we were like anjali and rahul in kuch kuch hota hai..i watched that movie when i was in form 3 and he was in form 5..during that year school holidays, i felt like it's gonna be our last holidaay together,told him,"lepas ni kau will have a lots of time by yourself, jgn lupe aku eh"..he put his hand on my shoulder and said,"dun worry fira, no matter what happen, u'll still come first.kan aku dah janji dlm komuter"..we made a pack when were stuck in the komuter about not having a partner if one of us are not having any partner..heh, janji budak budak,senang la cakap ek, u'll never know what's gonna happen to your life next can..it's indeed our last holiday together..he found the girl of his dream, and decided to devote his life for her..and u know what happen to me..i was kinda broken back then..upset because there'll be no more ice-cream when im down,no more laughing of stupid things, no more well ya know, things u do with ur bestest buddy..tapi, i grew up from it..im a girl, of coz i can understand, when ur love are so very close to another girl..come on, platonic best friend, can never last la kan..it's either, u fell in love with each other and get married, u fell in love then u confess than feeling all weird than drift apart and it's gonna hurt because u were so comfortable with each other, u'll find someone of ur dream and get married then drift apart jugak or one of u is gay..ahaks..oh well, for what it's worth..i'm always happy and proud for you..life has never been any bad for you..alhamdulillah..good job, good life, wonderful wife..cantek pula juga pandai..kalau datuk k kate siti nurhaliza ade 9 ciri istimewa, i'm sure..his wife ade 900 of that..am i exxaggerating?hehe, taklah, since aku pernah very close to him, i know his just the perfect girl for him..KUDOS!..Sayangku Is,(he always wanted me to call him that after the cerekarama 'sayangku is' backkk then, tapi i was like eurghhh, tapi skang kasi la can,now and only)..I wish all the best in your life a ahead, and semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu..life has turned out really well for you and i wish that will always be..amin..
He sent me an email with a poem in it long time ago out of the blue before he die abes sekolah dulu...it was really sweet.i have always wanted to reply that email with this song..but being a lazy ass, aku tak pernah nak terhantar pon, asyik pending je..so aku tules la dalam post ni...he must thot that aku tak thotful, tp sebenarnye, i've printed it and put it in a special file in a box, with all our pictures and cards and etc he ever gave me to me..share it with u guys,once i terjumpe the box(demm aku mmg tak thotful,hahah)

Sugar Ray- Someday

Someday when my life has passed me by
i lay around and wonder why
you were always there for me
One way
in the eyes of the passer by
i look around for another try
and fade away
Some say better things will come our way
no matter they try to say
u were always there for me
someway when the sun begins to shine
i hear a song from another time
and fade away

2006-02-25T13:10:00.000+08:00

-i keep my cool but i'm fiedin' .i try to say goodbye and i choke .try to walk away but i stumble though i try to hide. it it's clear my world crumbles when you are not here-

2006-02-21T10:55:00.000+08:00

SIle tolong saya

gasaz afxfk hqbzp zbqnq hfkgf zdfgr
gsaaf sfdfz fxujz fhhxh irrxxg rvnqp
fhsdm cqbqx cmfyx fxjgc qsdaz ggvfk
mnfzp xqtga efndf exhsd fmczu sggdf
pfpzq xqxhc mgmmp gaxbr afnfx bzsbj
bnfye xshsn smzfc cfduz yhzhh ggcx
axfcq dmsdu

haih, sape terer,plis help tu decrypt those for me..i just got back from my haj, tak sempat rest tak sempat unpack, have to rush back to utp, throw out everything from my ~~terberanak~~ BIG luggage and throw in all the clothes and etc needed in utp wihthout rolling them, just campak je..balek2 utp, gaduh ngan pak gad bodoh sbb takde stiker keter although i repeatedly cakap "saye baru balek aji pakcik, saye baru balek aji ni" die tetap nak tanye aku siap warning kenape dah week 4 takde car sticker and nak saman org lak, lalu berlaku since jerit jerit and rampas2 matrix card di tgh2 alam lombong yg panas.. i'm so mad and tired, menyebabkan aku marah lalu nanges,tp dlm keter la,tak depan pakgad.. my frens said since i was wearing my jeans and fit ke?tshirt,tp longsleeve tau with my cover idung penyek shades,des y maybe pak gad tu tak compute i was actually ~~screaming~~ telling him saye baru balek haji.. then kelam kabut amik registration slip..student leave slip..request for transcript..graduation checklist(woohoo)..pastu carik lecturer dgn keadaan yg super berlengas,asking wether i've missed out any assignment ke tak..amek kunci bilik...haih..dan ttba ttba! diberikan satu assignment %#!@*(&#!(&# iaitu untuk mendecypt kan bende alah itu yang saye tatau mcm mane carenye lansung!..juge untuk menghack server apebende ntah...haih, boleh tak saya nak mencarut?..juga ttba kene buat project virtual reality yg tatau jugak..dan paleng confusing ialah, ttba hardcore it ppl project campur dgn hardcore finance&economic ppl project..adoih~~adoihh~~~..pastu ttba rumet tersayang telah berjaye menghasut untuk jadi pengaddict cerita korean,my girl..hins~~adekah saya akan berjaye untuk berada dalam dean's list pada sem ini?rasa nak nanges..the subjects:
1.ICT DEGREE:
a.Virtual Reality
b.Computer Security
c.Wireless Communication
d.Internet Programming
e.COmputer Project Management

2. Finance:
a.Multinational COrporate Finance & International Business
b. Corporate Finance
c.Business Accounting

mampukah anak zul buktikannye sekali lagi?

aja!aja!basyah!!

cabut

2005-12-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

"All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go"

hey peeps, i've been pretty busy for the past few weeks, though i have a 1mb connection unlike utp, i still cant find the time to update my blogs since i got back past 3 weeks. the first 2 weeks at home, i just can't get myself of from my sweel lil dina, who is my niece who has grown attached to me day by day, even nak pakai diapers and mandi, she would ask for her "auntie fila"...huhu
..
That's her!!haih i'm so missing her right now...the day when we sent her off at the airport, die menanges looking for her atok baby, nenek ayang, aunti bet and of coz her auntie fila..isk isk..and her mother called us that she had a hard time pujuking her, and even when they are home, she would mengigau of us and when she's playing around, she would look out to the gate and call for us..isks isk, then she had a fever, demam rindu..aduh niece ku~~

She wont lemme go we have to tipu her nak semayang

with her atok baby, my ayah

at my house before going to KLIA

so anyway, she left a few days before we had our kenduri wida and doa selamat, so after she left, i was bz preparing for the kenduri..the kenduri went great!gathered wif my beloved kazenss, than mlm tu we all watched 'baik punya cilok' then what else?ha then, tinggal like 5 more days b4 gi haji, yang tak packing and shopping and bla bla bla...

My fav gossip partner kasen, farouk!takleh stop! he was last year's english national debate champion, from KISAS..budak kolej islam, tapi hebat gossip..huhu

The Yusoff's Clan!

Makan time!

Makan time lagi!

My Fav uncles, how I wish i could get their green eyes,or izzit gray?tapi to bad gene tu sampai generation my mom je, sheesh

My Fav Kazens

The Girls

so bz preparing for haji la plak..tonite is my last nite home, we'll be going off tomorrow..i'm travelling light senang sket..just 2 small bags hasil pemberian tabung haji and my travel agent...Ku Yah and Tengku Amir ~~how kewl is dat being a tengku mahkota at 12 years old ?huhu~~ will be with us, herm not sure about kerabat Selangor yang lain...our quota last flight, so trus pergi Makkah then only well be going to Madinah..We'll be staying in Dar al Firdous in Makkah and in Madinah we'll be staying in Hilton..Hope we'll be seing Husam there, die dah pegi last thursday (kalau Tengku Husam jadi?KuSam!!!..haha jgn marah)haih, this week shah has been very dearly sweet to me, call me everytime, sayin sweet stuffs, kalau mcm ni kene tinggalkan die selalu lah, huhu, tapi nanti aku yang rinduuu~~I asked for a jubah or any clothes to be given to me, so dat i'll think of him when i'm there..die cakap malas lah, wasting money, he said i have too many clothes already, sheesh, it's the thoughts ok, not the clothes, and few hours ago he just bought himself a new Pioneer home theater system, how wasting money is dat..beli nye tonite, then tomorrow fly over to kl..yaperdaa...oh well~~i have no more ideas to blabber about, maybe i'm just too overwhelmed with the thoughts of going there kot..takut pun ade, excited pun ade, bits of everything..i've been there a few times but for umrah...and this time for haji, haih~~~on the wukuf day, Allah akan turun ke langit bumi, which is the nearest we can get to Him..aku dah la banyak dosa, ntah terima ke tak aku jadi tetamu Allah..malunye saye~~..hins...ok lah peeps, doakan saya dan keluarga selamat pergi dan pulang...maafkan dan halalkan everything k..need to get some sleeps..sok kene kemas rumah sket before leaving..i'll be in kakak's car with bet and we will be picking up shah kat airport and mak and ayah, pakcik amin will drive them to kelana jaya.we'll b meeting everyone(families) kat sane ajerhs...how sweet is shah?he will be flying all d way from aloq staq just send me off..his initial plan, is to sampai KLIA at 1 pm, since tu je flight ade and waiitttt for me until my flight at 4.30 am, then bertape lagi kat KLIA until next morning at 11am ~~since die malas nak balek s.alam nanti takleh kuar balek~~ ..huhu terharu I, but I didnt know that from Kelana Jaya our bus will be escorted by the police outrider sampai depan pintu plane, luckily i told mak, huhu mak said," haih kalau die duduk sane, babai org balek england je lah..huhu"..haih, my sweet lovely darling!.ahaks..

"Dearie abang, Thanks for everything and i'm sorry for everything, halalkan makan minum ye. Thanks for holding my hand and chose me to share the journey with me,no matter how sweet, bitter, smooth and rough.I'm proud I have you to go through it. I am strong when I'm on your shoulder.I'll pray the best for us, I'll pray that you'll be success in life, and akhirat juge and I'll pray that we'll be together, happily ever after, Amin"

2005-12-19T10:06:00.000+08:00

You Should Get a MBA (Masters of Business Administration)

You're a self starter with a drive for success.You'd make a great entrepreneur.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

tepat sekali!

yeeha~~~!!!

2005-12-05T13:43:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

yeeehaaaaa~~~exam dah abess!!..sgt seronok rasenye membuang masa tanpa rasa bersalah setelah in d skema mode for months..lepas abes je exam, shah came over to utp,uuuu tak larat sbb lame tak jumpe,ahh~~ watched harry potter, sumhow i found it pale in comparison with the prisoners of azkaban episode..cam tak climax..but shah liked it..oh well..then on saturday we went to the pc fair in PISA, penang..me, being a gadget freak(i don't like shopping for clothes much),jadi rambang mata jap..memule kekonon nak beli some basic necessities je, a mini retractable mouse,a mini pen drive, web cam, so that time cuti leh conference dgn shah,hihu then wat else?ha bende bende camtu je lah..then ttba terjalan dkt depan digi cam nye booth..was not in the list,ttba my super quick generating mind ter came up with reason, "nak gi mekah dah ni,so kene get a new camera"..eh motif?so ttba tergrab my self a new mju mini..huhu, black colour..got a good deal over it, sbb came sekali dgn 256mb xd card and extra battery and a leather case..okla..shah wasn't helping by halang i from buying..(ttba nak salahkan orgkan,ahaks)..dah la i gune credit card, so dah lepas beli tu, ttba terfikir, ape nak jawab ngan mak ayah nanti..heh, then again, best ade super quick generating mind ni, i remembered i hilangkan mak punye newly bought mju-II long time ago when it first came out..so cakap jelah, ni hadiah ganti..ahaks..tapi my mum not a camera person pun, so i know in d end, i got it back..tapi, aku pun bukan camera person, bile ade shah je garek amek gambar..hihi..erm, haah ek, ape motif aku beli digi cam nih?haiya..tu la excited sgt abes exam, cannot think straight dah..

muke berminyakk lepas penat shopping, ini bukan boria pulau pinang, tapi we all mmg selalu terpakai baju same tema..hihi
yay!next year last! then i'll be graduating with an honest degree..tapi for the time being, can't wait to hop in the plane, and be in the most serene place in the world i have ever been, rindu kat mekah and madinah, lame dah tak pegi..since i got into uni, so cuti dah tak same dgn sumerang..hins~..but this time i'll be performing haj, so berat sket lah then umrah..haih, banyak nye dosa gue..so anyway(hehe), mak ayah n bed are coming this thursday, then balik!!!...cant wait to see my babies!! my hp ipaq, yang dah repair after i terduduk on it then lcd pecah..ahak! and my slim shady notebook, after dah kene curik dgn si pencurik laptop kat midvalley..yay!!gile kl ni, pantang ade peluang, nak mencuri jek...tak sabar nak balek!!..tapi, sedeh nak balek dr aloq staq ni, oh btw, im in aloq staq now.after pegi penang, shah kidnaped me over to aloq staq..huhu.no no ppl, did not stay over his house..i have a a room here, which i sewa sendiri ok!..best dtg aloq staq, so lil time so much to eat..huhu..best dekat dgn shah, best gi ofis shah, sbb nanti staff die panggil aku cik fira..ahaks!..terase mcm bos..huhu..haih~~ok lah..need to pack up my things..my bus at 5.30..shylla a.k.a paris hilton penang mari will be picking me up kat ipoh..then the next day, kene gi jumpe supervisor for my final year project, then packing, then, mak datang!!! yay!!!ok, wa cau dulu!!

*My Miss List*

My Custom Made Teddy-Bear Sent from Heaven

My Mad Annoying but Lovable Old-Time Boyfriend

Budak 2 ekor ni yang selalu tak ajak aku tgk movie(tp aku mmg xnak pun)

My baby ipaq which i'm lost without it(i sat on it so LCD die pecah, but ayah dah hanta repair, mekaseh ayah!ai yev yu!)

But in order to see all being listed above, im sure gonna miss mentioned below:

My Uni(this is the library),ye saya mmg skema sbb xde org sayang uni mereka seperti saya.

My room,maaf gambar perlu dicensored biasala bila dalam bilik,bilik juga agak berkecah sbb mase tu baru dapat delivery laptop(refer atas meja) dan pocket pc, tapi malangnya notebool itu dicuri setelah seminggu in possesion..hins~~

Yaaaaaaaa, yang paling utama, udah tentu orang tua ini!!..waduh waduh~~akan lama engga jumpa nih nanti..gonna mish yah!:~~~(

first raya

2005-11-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

first raye, saye saket, saye demam teruk, pepagi raye..sian saye, tak dapat food fiesta, saye makan bubur tawar, je tu pun tak lalu, dgn air cap badak..tekak saye pedih, saye takleh telan air liur, tinger saye pedih, mate saye mcm kuar asap..badan saye bisa bisa..haih, tuhan sayang kat saya, tu pasal Dia uji saya...ok itu sahaja coretan di hari yang mulia ini..

peneng

2005-11-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

arini saye bangun lambat, pukul 2 baru bangun..sbb malam tadi saye gi qiyamulail, kul 2.30 pagi dah kene bangun, abes kul 7..alhamdulillah, dapat buat qiyamulail di bulan ramdhan..ustad tu best, tapi nanti bile ustad tu nanges, saye pun nages sekali..hihi..sahur kat masjid tu pun best gak, dah setahun lebih saya tak dapat makan asam pedas melaka ori, bukan maksud saya nak condem ibu saya, die masak best, tapi die org kl, mesti takkan dapat jadi gak asam pedas melaka yang ori..so sahur kat masjid tu dapat baikk punya, ape lagi, tanpa segan silu, saye belasah nasi bebanyak dgn ikan masen dgn sup kentang & su un beersame asam pedas yang banyak...pastu, balek rumah igt nak trus buat keje, pas bace mathurat saye tertidur dgn telekung2 sekali, huhu..sampai lah kul 2..lepas tu ikut mak ke jusco tuk beli groceries, saya pau mak saya peel-off mask, pastu bile kat cashier, mak tanye,'eh sape punye ni?'..saye sengeh je kat mak..mak pun buat muke, dan paham, itu mmg trick saye semenjak kecik, sorok dlm dlm trolly, nanti kat cashier mak takleh lari atau letak balek, so terpakse lah mak bayar..ahaks!..tapi saye baik, saye tak penah pau lebeh rm10(yeke?)..lepastu, window shopping jap, sbb saye dah jadi jakun, yelah memandangkan, sepanjang sem di utp saye tak pernah berkesempatan nak window shopping..lpeastu, balek rumah saye tolong mak readykan bukak pose, dan masak sambal kentang recipe mak saye yang best!!ala minang(mak saye org minang)..lepastu bukak pose, tgh tgh bukak pose, saye panic, assignmnets saye satu hape pun tak jalan..so dgn hati yang berat saye decide tak pegi trawih, sedehnye sbb malam ni malam last..lepastu saye makan cookies, ttba tersemput..haiyaa..keseorang di rumah semput, sian saye, takde org jage..ttba rumah pose pose blekout, seb baik tak bebetul, saye igtkan ade hantu kacau saye, tapi ni bulan ramadhan..so hati saya yang dah nak mule cuak dan otak saye yg tgh atur plan lari dari rumah kembali tenang..sambil buat keje depan tv, saye tgk citer astro pasal world apart, sian org Kenya tu hidup nomad, saye insaf dan bersyukur pade tuhan sbb rumah saye ade microwave so boleh la saye panaskan teh dan letak mint leaves dalam teh itu(motif?), i learned that when i was in iran..sedap tau, tak payah beli commercialised mint tea kat supermarket, membazer je, mahal tak pasal pasal..lepas tu saya teruskan buat keje,sambel tgk world apart tu, sian dierang hidup tgh panas kat desert insaf saye sekali lagi, saye pun trase panas lalu saye angkut laptop saye sambel membalas YM jaja dan pergi ke belek saye and switch on air-cond(insaf ke tak ni?)..pastu shah call, saye HEPPI!! setelah rase nak muntah buat project ni, saye kene buat sorang sorang sumenyer sbb partner saye sebuk beraye satu mesia, mentang mentang saye takde kampung *&^^%^&*&..herm, muke saye pun dah tak terjage, saye dah lame tak letak chanel precision saye yang berkesan tu, saye igtkan saya consumer yang bodoh setelah diperdaya oleh sales girl, rupenye chanel precision tu mmg berkesan, terpaksa saya abandoned lancome grape seed saye, maafkan saya lancome, saya tak bermaksud..eh dah baper patah perkataan ni?haih, kan best kalau saye boleh buat report saye selaju ini dan idea yang keluar mencurah2 sebegini..malam ni ade qiyamulail lagi kat masjid bukit baru..saye nak pergi ke tak? saye baru siap buat report, rase cam nak tidur, dierang sumer dah lame tidur, sbb nak bangun gi qiyamulail..herm, tgk lah, kalau saye larat bangun, harap2 saya larat, sebab mlm ni last ramadhan, saye banyak dosa nak mintak ampun, dah la semalam lepas semayang taubat, saye gaduh dgn adik saya kat masjid, mesti makcik sebelah adik saye tu konfius..ish ish ish..herm, mint tea saye dah abes, tapi saye maseh haus, tapi saye dha tak larat nak turun bawah..saye nak ken**** pastu semayang isya, trawih sket, pastu saye rase saya nak tidur..tapi saye takut nak tidur, sbb rase tak tenteram keje tak siap..saye mmg skema, maafkan saye..rambut saye pun dah semaken kerenteng, tapi yang pelik dkt bahagian fringe je, semaken hebat kerintingnye, mungkin sbb faktor sem ni syae berusaha keras..hermm, rase2nye pas solatsss saye buat keje lagilah, sampai jari saye bengkak dan air liur basi saye penuh kat keyboard...selamat malam~dan mimpi indah kawan2..assalammulaikum

saye rindu HP iPAQ saye....:U --->icon mulut muncung

plan pada hari ini

2005-10-31T11:11:00.000+08:00

fira's plan

1. pegi TM point untuk report pasal ayah's streamyx bill yang overcharge, ayah subscribe for 512kb ~~seb baik saye terer hacking, so saye leh uncap connection streamyx up till 8mb,huhu~~ tapi die charge 1mb pulak this time.buduh TMnet, karang ayah buat pangai gune cable utk complain kang, korang gak yah susah. lu maw mati ka?.tapi yang tak bestnye keter saye xde, so kene drive volvo ~~tanker~~ ayah yang besar tu..x bestnye, takleh rempit and cilok!! ye saye ialah seorang gadis yang berusia 21 tahun yang masih berjalan berpegangan tangan ibu atau ayahnye, tapi saye juga abang long yang macho di rumah ini di mana saya kene uruskan hal hal keluarga sama ada bil-bil, provision and groceries, masak, mengdrill lubang untuk sangkut gambar pingat ayah etc,untuk paku dinding untuk cable sleeving etc, drill dinding dan pasang curtain rail dimana langsir itu saye juge yang jahit(errand ini berlaku di rumah shah,ahaks),saye juge bertugas sebagai pembunuh tikus atau ape ape makhluk yang unwanted di rumah ini, saye juge sebagai pc technician dan network administrator untuk rumah cum ayah's home office..saye mmg multirounded, tapi satu je saye tak buat, kemas rumah..huhu, tu kakak saye je yang terer..dan juge shah, ahaks..harap2 dpt kawen ngan die, sbb nanti die leh kemas rumah, saye leh buat sumer yang lain..ahahahha

2.mungkinkah hari ini atau besok?untuk saye pegi carikkan mak's new air-cond for her room.die cakap, die nak LG artcool and 1.5 HP..ish ish demand pulak..huhu

3.call technical site TMnet, untuk request for rebate

4.pegi carik new timberland to go to class( hello, bukan boot pegi sawah tu ok) sbb my scholl dah tak best, sian dia dah didowngrade tuk turun ke cafe and pasar malam je.

5.mungkinkah juga hari ini atau besok?untuk saya pegi ke country club tuk renew saye punye membership, kalau tak tak dapat main golf lagi..demm!!

6.akhir sekali, buat assingment saye yang berlambak lambak tu...uwaaaaa~!!!!

shah's plan

1. kemas rumah (i told you, bagus kan die ni?)

2.rindu kat saya

3. rindu kat saya

4. ingat kat saya

5. rindu kat saya

6.rindu kat saya

wahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! ~~eleh,suke hati aku la nak berangan!huhu~~

home sweet home

2005-10-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

ahh~~ home at last~~..alhamdulillah..1st thing that im glad being home is bukak laptop anywhere u like in the house and pap! u r connected to the 1 MB internet, supersonic laju..adohai, rase mcm culture shock setelah lame bergelumang dgn internet UTP yang slow as siput...seronok gile buat assignmentssssss..yerp! our cuti raya is equivalent as study week, how sad is that?i have to be back to utp at least on the 3rd day of raya, and have to submit my computer graphics project yg super laha in the 5th day raya, i have test o n the next day, then submit another difficult assignment on the next day, then presentation of the super confusing project( 0 progress up till now) on the next day, and another test the next day, then weekends, and the final exam start!!hooray!!!adohai~~~ku berserah..
anyway, as y'all know i have no social life, especially sem ni yang kelam kabut berserta hajat yang menggunung nak 4 flat seperti last sem or at least dapat dean's list award, so i have nothing much of updatings, let see..ok, shah came down to utp on the nuzul quran holiday, guess for what?besides visiting me, we attended kursur kawen!!!huhu *blush* shah came over semate2 untuk kursus kawen kat utp, sentimental value tau!!sbb jumpe kat utp, bercinta kat utp, kursus kawen kat utp, harap2 nikah kat utp, insyaAllah..ahaks *blush lagi* ni gambar-->

kebetulan attire tersame..haih subhanallah, best tau kursus kawen tu, bukan sbb ape, sbb baaaaaanyaaaaakk sgt rahmat dari Allah kalau kite mendirikan masjid..masyaAllah..harap harap, jodoh kami kuat, dan tuhan mudahkan jalan, amin...so anyway, the day before, we all bukak pose kat buffet mc D..huiyai, makan sampai nak pengsang, takleh nak list down appe makan, byk sgt, rasenye sumer menu kat mc d tu kot..tapi tak rase mcm mc D pun, sbb sumer dak utp je kat situ, siap leh panggil-borak2 across the table slumber je..ni gambar lagi -->

went with my dearie yana emon(blue) and rina, she's 8 month pregnant, mudah mudaham dapat baby yang sihat dan suriat yg soleh..amin..in green is meor, rina's husband,both of them and dehe(in blue) are shah's friends in utp..hermm ok what else?takde bende lah sgt, except project project project study study study..oh yes, i was in the list for PETRONAS Recruitment interview, didn't know like until half an hour before the briefing although the list has been posted up kat cafe earlier on..tu pon seb baik sha bagi tau, kalau tak, haih, senang2 hati je tolak rezeki..alhamdulillah, dpt interview pun jadi lah, sbb selected one je tuh..harap harap, tuhan murah kan rezeki, untuk being recomended..disebabkan tau lambat, and my slot was suppose to be the net day 8 am, kelam kabut call ayah, to mintak S.O.S beli pant suit..ahaks, tapi alhamdulillah lagi, tuhan mcm tahu tahu, ttba i managed being swapped to wednesday 8 am slot, so sempatlah beli pantsuit on tuesday, and dapatlah beli and bukak pose with shah as he was on his way back from aloqstaq to shah alam for meetings and trus raya..hihi..but sumthing happened on that nite, during the commotion of kelam kabut shah nak balek so kene shopping cepat, i tak perasan my hp ipaq was in the back pocket, and mase tgh babai babai shah in the car, terduduk,,so tekalah ape jadi..herm, LCD die crack..redha je lah, still fucntionin i still can receive calls tapi dispplay takde lah..takpelah, bukan rezeki aku, moga2 Allah kurnikan rezeki yang lain, amin..tergugat gak semangat nak interview sok, yelah ttba kene spedo ngan cine maxis, die kate naks seribu, nau'zubillah..sib baik tak main melulu je suh die repair..terdiam jap for a while..pastu shah call, die bagi pep talk baik punye..and balek semayang, baru lega hati..takpe, ini sume dugaan kan, mane tau akan datang rezeki yang lebih lagi..amin..ape lagi nak bebel?actually i tgh baring on the sofa kat family hall notebook on my lap (name pun laptop) sambil tgk laksamana do re mi..thank god dapat ayah yang advance so on the first day of this being broadband dah trus berwireless dah..so kekadang tgh tunggu ayam masak, i surf la the net kat dapur, ahaks..ok lah konon2 nak buat research sambil tgk tv, budget tunjuk rajen deoan ayah, tapi sebenanrye, berblog..huhu..ok lah! get back to studies...

mlm ni 27 ramadhan, semoga Allah dapat kejutkan aku supaya dapat bangun berqiyamulail, amin..

I MISS YOU

2005-10-29T19:26:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU!!I MISS YOU!!I MISS YOU!!I MISS YOU!!I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU! I MISS YOU! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!!
I MISS YOU!!I MISS YOU!!I MISS YOU!!I MISS YOU!!I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU! I MISS YOU! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!! I MISS YOU!!

2005-10-13T13:15:00.000+08:00

My usual Planned daily routine: 'R' indicateS the fasting month

6 am – wake up for subuh , gi masjid kalau I tak terovertime golek2 on the bed
'R'5-6 am – sahur, quran reciting or solat sunat, subuh di masjid
7 am – jogging,mandi , solat dhuha then chores, if classes start at 10 else
do some chores ,solat dhuha and revise or buat projects/assignments
'R'7am – mandi, solat dhuha, revisions and projects/assignment
8/10 am – 5/6 pm – classes, library or lab in between, lunch(if its not Monday/Thursday) solat.the whole period will be spend in the campus.unless the weather is super panas, balek bilik for a bath

6pm –8pm – squash/riadah(kalau tak penat & hujan), magrib di masjid(kalau tak main squash),
dinner(sendiri, atau café).
'R'6pm-11/12pm – prepare for iftar di masjid, while waiting for iftar, tadarus, then magrib, while waiting for isya’ &trawih, notes reading/quran reciting.isya&trawih.REVISIONS AGAIN
8pm -11/12am – chat wif some frens/ayah for a while(do not exced 1 hour).study or assignment/projects.

11/12 am – 6 am – isya’ & al-mulk then ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz
'R'11/12am – 5 am- al-mulk then ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

Saturday – same as above, except the campus period, morning-in the library, others- studying in my own secret little place
Sunday – studying in my own secret little place.
(provided there are no outing plans for both of that day)

Well, that’s my daily routine,or at least planned daily routine for my days in UTP. U can tell, that I am a mere plain jane that don’t watch movies or the latest america’s next top model that can be downloaded from the network or even naruto, the super anime that all the students have being worshipping since my early days in UTP. The last time, I watched a movie was with shah, few months ago. To me watching movies is a waste of money and time ( I am very thrifty, u know). Unless!! With someone I love, at least I would say that’s quality time. Rather than watching just for the sake of the handsome actor, or great producer. Shoot me a question about movies, I’ll give my typical answer ”haven’t watch it”. Since shah graduated, muke aku jarang bersepah kat utp or ipoh.sometimes I don’t go to classes either, ppl thot I’m playing truant but they wonder why I always got good results.well that’s the reason, although I skipped classes, my times are filled with books, not watching dramas.the reason I skipped classes, because sometimes, I understand better by my ownself, unless that lecturer is a good lecturer and have good command of English and does not read the slides back! Actually, this is the real me, I am a very homely person ( unless, I need to divert my mind of something, say, ‘masalah negare’, that time, aku akan betul2 berfoya2, i.e karaoke etc, sbb I hate sitting around and banging my head onto the wall thinking bout it). Even when I’m home, I can count by fingers how many time I go out, unless if it’s with mak or ayah. I would find something to do around the house (not decorating,tu akak je buat)or have a good conversation with my family.i don’t watch astro either, although I have my own astro back home, unless there’s absolutely nothing to do.
Ok, that’s for the intro part(panjang eh?), the reason I post this entry today is that, I’M ADDICTED TO VERONICA MARS!!..damn!!...even my roommate realized that. This week has been a very unproductive week for me, there were only few hours spent in my secret lil place(yup, I have my own secret place, because I actually hate ppl to know or see what I’m doing. I did something terribly wrong before ,that I felt, the whole world has penetrated into my life, benci!) I’ve been wasting my time watching that drama..bencinye!! I realized it yesterday when yana came over to buka pause at my apartment,
yana:” mu tgk ape?”
Me: “veronica mars”eyes glued to the notebook
Yana: “ best ke?”
Ez the rumet: “kalau fira dah tgk tu, sedap ah tu, mu baik gi donlod, “
Sheesh~~ at that point, I realized, OMG! I’ve been wasting my time with veronica mars.alamak, sumbudy please get some sense into me. I NEED TO RETURN TO BEING A PLAIN JANE!!I NEED TO BE IN THE DEAN’S LIST NEXT SEMESTER!!(kalau tak takleh kawen, huhu)I NEED TO GET ALL A’S TO COVER COMPUTER GRAPHIC YANG I’M BOUND TO GET AT LEAST a D!..bencinye computer graphic!!!
Sekian timer kaseh, setakat ini sahaja, hasil pembuangan mase untuk ari ini. Oh by the way, shah and i are going to the kursus kawen next week.ahaks!

2005-10-11T09:42:00.000+08:00

argh!!!marahnye!!kenape tenet utp sake ess nak M!!..camne nak buat keje ni???!!bodohnye ITMS...geramnye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shopping

2005-09-30T01:13:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

Today, i went for a day out with my two favourite girls (kakak and mak)..je suis morte!..from mak ngah house at bangsar, went to mak su's place in pj, then went to wisma yakin for jubah haji, then went to tabung haji for some haji stuffs.. then went to ampang point for mak's 'cannot resist' shopping joint, where else, habib jewels la.. for years mak asyek suruh i choose a bracelet that i like, but me hating a non tiffanny or bvlgari so much, akhirnye tertempted juge sbb ade new design..ahaks...so got a pair of bracelet( ngengade kan, mak offer satu, rembat 2 terus)...then met ayah in klcc..had tea..but regretting it sbb thai place tu sak ess..then, wanted to buy a new shades, tapi ayah sebuk nak balek...and now i'm missing my cik abang sayang...haih~~~..my stylus of the pda phone tu pulak MIA...adoih~..dah la, nak pass motion then nak ZZZzzzz..( hermm, mcm takde motif pun i tules dis post kan?..hihi)

haih

2005-09-20T00:35:00.001+08:00

fira wrote:

haih~ to all my regular readers, mesti perasan this is a new background music. lagu lame tu host die dah bungkus..huhu...suke lagu tu, tp i suke lagu ni jugak..arinih listened to it many times..somehow, it makes me feel,ermm, tranquil, if i may say so..tapi i mmg 'jiwang' pun. i'm a music appreciator..i've been involved with music dr kecik lagi, i think it runs in d family kot..so anyway, i donno why, listening to this song made me realised, how much i miss my arwah datuk..:( ...everything was happy and fun with him around..haih, it makes me badly and desperately want to pack my bags and cabut balek leicestershire.. and run away from all the huru hara that had happened in my life..kat sane lagi best, it must be very peaceful, calming and takde org nak sebuk sebuk ngan my private life..huhu..haih~~ cepat la!! abes belajar!!! nak sambung MBA kat loughborough university(tempat i was conceived dulu,huhu) nak nikah kat london mosque(tempat datuk selalu gi semayang,:( )..nak rebuild my life kat leicestershire(tempat where i started my life,my existance in this world).. nak start a new life, rimas duk mesia nih..benci!! byk sgt org 'kampung' yg bodoh bodoh..arghh...sori ek emo jap, ai mish my datuuk....:(

I asked for strength...but Allah gave me difficulties...to make me Strong..
"and when My servant question thee concerning Me, tell them I am near. I answer the prayer of the suppliant when he cry unto me. So let them bear My call and let them trust in Me, in order that they may be led aright - Al Baqarah verser 186"

revival!

2005-09-18T11:07:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

hey peeps!!, i'm back!!..lamenye tak tules blog, well, as u know, i've finish my internship and back to utp, dah midbreak dah pun..test 1 sumer dah abes..and to my utpian frens, sure dierang tau, betape lagging nye tenet utp skang, which makes me want to scream, and up to a point, i dah patah hati dgn tenet utp, so tak de la aku ber blog..aiyo, teruk gile tenet utp skang, konon nak enhance, lagi teruk jadinye..choi je! kalau aku YM ngan bapak aku, die antar msg pagi ni, malam kang baru aku leh reply...hhuhu, exxagerate sket.ahaks..so, sbb tu la aku tak berblog, mahupun balas email, mahupun cek frenster..nak gi lab or library, mcm sgt malas nak lepak sesane lame lame..i enjoy my room, wif my new rumet, we turned our bilik into a hotel-like room(nanti upload pic ek)..oh ok, to whom who misses me(ade ke?) here's my new pic, i lost few kg tau!huhu

that's us kat utp's library.shah came down to visit me after tak jumpe for 7 weeks, and he sent me home all the way to melaka..schwittt~~(yela kalau tau, citer sebenarkan,thihi).he spent a nite, then besok tu balek kedah..haih,sian abang..dah la malam tu and siang tu, ayah sebuk bawak die ke hulu ke hilir..huhu..n'way, yesterday was mak's besday party..her besday was las friday(mine was 3days before,huhu)..we had it a day later, sbb ayah got a meeting on friday, and kakak pun mlm jumaat baru balek..the menue was: pulut kuning world! ala mawi, rendang daging, 'smoked' lamb dania, ais kosong pandan and bond's.. i masak sume except for the lamb, tu kakak punye masterpiece..fuh, tertonggeng tonggeng aku masak pulut, sbb steamer tu lagi tinggi dr aku.huhuhu.. here're the pics:

the bonds ,mak's 50 yrs pulut kuning and the ais kosong pandan

the table settings

ayah trying to halang mak from ruinin d surprise stelah berjaye halau her for the day, huhu

the birthday girl!

kasi can ltk pic kakak yg ambikkan pic td,huhu

last but not least, ayah, yg setiap kalai kalau ape ape celebration mesti die tak pakai baju...choi je!

to all who made it happen(sape jek, kakak, bed and ayah.) thank you!!!

huhu,arghh super lapa.ok nak makan..btw. i;m going back to utp this evening after 1 week holiday, baru nak tulis blog kan?ahaks..for the week i was bz lah, converting the mini library yg dah bertahun abandoned into ayah's home office since die dah malas gi office die..nak kene buat cabling the streamyx la,fax lah wat lah sort things lah...haih~biase la anak yg gagah, susah sket la, sumer aku kene buat..huhu..allrite~nak makan, and sent bed off tu muar(sent her off dpn rumah je,huhu)..and i'll be updating later eh, byk bende nak citer, tapi tulah tenet utp lembab, next time balek rumah kot,,hahahaha..ok chiow~~~

p/s: i mish my boochiicboo...:(

2005-07-19T16:21:00.000+08:00

yay!! my very own laptop and pda phone!!

2005-07-14T10:14:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

alhamdulillah!!yay yay!!..finally i'm gonna get my very own laptop and pda phone...senang la siket nak buat final year project..dulu pakai desktop sbb capacity nak gune banyak, yelah konon programmer kan..tapi dah final year ni i think i really need something mobile lah..thanks so very much to kakak who sanggup susah payah to settelkan my duit..kakak pon dapat lap top jugak yay!!yay!!..(i would feel bad kalau i ade laptop, and she still need to pakai ayahnye extra laptop..herm, wonder why kakak punye desktop, setahun je dah crash, aku nye dari second year sampai skang maseh bertenage lagi)sian dia, have to ponteng klass and get the erl from putrajaya to go to jalan tun perak to get to the bcb hq untuk setelkan pasal duit..because u know why?typical ayah is just to lazy to go trough all the trouble..dah la yang tak setel lagi ayah punye signature, i asked ayah to singgah jap before meeting kat mcmc,cyberjaya kat hq bcb tu, siap the big boss of retail&product departmnet to yang uruskan pasal duit ni, shouldn't be any hassle la kan, masuk je bilik pn linda tu, sign je...but still, ayah ku sayang~~~selagi boleh ape ape hal pon, die suruh charlie's angels die ni sumer buat sendiri..tp, come to think of it, we all turn out to be a a very independant ladies..mmg charlie's angel sgt..yelah kan, we all sumer girls, kalau nak harapkan jantan je mmg tak ke mana la kan..i'm so proud of my sisters, sumer independant..we r so used of being independent and matured, up to a point maser aku form 1 aku tukar sekolah sendiri(sebelum masuk stf la)..from infant jesus convent to st david's high school..jumpe pengetua sendiri, pegi jpn sendiri...haih~~that was like 2 months after abes sekolah rendah..hebat tak?..ahahah..everything pon kene buat sendiri, my university's enrollment pon buat sendiri,(ayah ngan mak drove me to the uni la,xde la jahat sgt nak suh aku hitch hike gi sane.chihi),my scholarship pon sendiri, seb baik lah petronas bermurah hati nak sponsor aku, kalau tak, terpaksa la bersusah payah nak compete with other for government's loan yang tak seberapa tu..seb baik jugak lah, utp nak kasi aku belajar kat utp for january intake..tak yah susah payah nak isi borang upu and duk rumah berbulan bulan tunggu result and berbulan bulan tunggu masuk U..alhamdulillah...tak yah susah kan mak ayah..walaupun masuk universiti tercanggeh di dunia(tak caye bace paper) and the only university in malaysia, that needs u to go through a few level of interviews and tests yang super susah,being sponsored by top 5 gainers in the world..sampai skang mak and ayah tak penah kuar duit pon untuk tanggung i belajar..sumer duit petronas...just that rm512.50 and duit tol and minyak maser nak register dulu..that 500 for orientation week..masuk pulak batch yang creme of the creme(aku tak, terselit je tetibe or maybe sebab aku terer spedo maser interview,,hihih)tapi yang tak best nye, pas few weeks spm, trus sambung belajar balek..tak sempat ronggeng and buat ritual membakar segale buku teks and buku integrasi(kodinye!)..pastu masuk sorang sorang ,x de gang, and dah namenye "batch creamy" sumer skema2 takde member pon seiring dan sejalan untuk beronggeng..hang out memalam ke..(tapi shah found me, so tak boring dah pas tu,yes shah was in his final year, and one of seniors yang usha anak anak ayam ni..lalalala)pastu when all of my frens sumer beria excited siap kuar berita masuk university bulan 5 2002 tu, aku tgh sibuk final exam..pastu b4 that org sumer excited nak gi sekolah ambik result, aku tak leh sbb tgh banyak assignment..pastu org sumer gi sekolah untuk hari anugrah cemerlan(dpt $$$$ sbb good result) aku tak pegi sbb tgh mid term test, so ayah pegi ambik kan (eh, what happen to the money aa?sampai skang aku tatau pon baper ringgit aku dpt,...hmmmm)...waaaa~~~~sedehnya i missed a lot!!!..takpelah, u loose some, u gain some...tapi in my case, i've been blessed by God, i gain a lot ok!!..aku ni bukan nye cerdik benor pon to got in a such prestigious position and sponsored by such prestigious oganization... thanks to my parents too, sebab they berjaye brought us up and put a lot of sense into us how important to work hard and be independant....kalau tak i won't think ive gone this far..mak and ayah must be proud of me, cause in my 21 years of living, i've learn a lot and gained a lot..proud of my sisters to, we all sumer berjaye, kakak will be the next electronic&electrical engineer(after mak and ayah and ermm, shah kire family tak?ayah suke golfing dgn die, and die suke gossip dgn mak ..chihi), i'm gonna be and accountant(hopefully chartered accountant after 3 years) who also holds a degree in ICT, bed pulak in sekolah menengah sains muar(oh!mak, kakak and i were STFians..:D ) struggling for her spm soon, bed kate nak jadi CSI..so far result die ok..add maths selalu 100% so how?aku nak jawab pembezaan and pengkamiran pon mcm nak maki je sape la cipta bende tu up to a point ade one time ni, i trew my text book add maths kaler pepel yang kecik tu out of the window(malam before add maths's spm, i breakdown and cry..shhh!)..mak terer add maths gak, tapi bile tanye die, die ajar in english, trus aku lagi confuse, so aku decide aku nak redha je aku bodoh add maths..tapi bed mmg work hard gile..tidor ngan buku sumer ngan buku, kalau boleh die nak berak pon dgn buku sbb taknak waste time..she got a lot of pressure on her sbb die need to keep up on her kakak kakak..sian~~seb baik aku ade satu kakak je nak keep up..haih, thanks to mak and ayah, kalau bukan on how they brought us up yang satu ketika dulu mase aku teenagers aku thot mak ayah aku ni tak reti jage anak, sbb jeles ngan org lain boleh manje manje, leh senang senang dapat playstation when we all nak microgenius pon susah, although my parents can afford more than that,nak mintak pensel pon susah, nanti ayah kuar cerita dulu die pakai pensel sampai pendek kalau dah pendek, sambung dgn tutup pen..now i know why, eh alamak, dah terpanjang~~~damn la!!tu yang malas nak tules blog ni, trus terlupe aku banyak kerja...and kalau dah citer pasal family, mmg la kan,, cannot stop..ok lah need to get back to my report...argh~~~tu la mak dah pesan ayah dah bilang, buat awal awal, skang sape yang susah???

closing curtain

2005-07-05T10:39:00.000+08:00

shah is joey

2005-07-01T17:17:00.000+08:00

shah wrote:

you're joey...a little on the slow side, but with
good intentions, people can't help but love
you.

me!

2005-06-28T12:10:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

you're rachel...sophisticated and cosmopolitan, but
a little on the shallow side. your friends
envy the ease with which you attract members of
the opposite sex, but they know they'll always
come first.

which Friends character are you?

2005-06-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

shah and fira wrote:

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!!

Specially From FiraFebeles

To Miss Uzwani Mahmud my best friend,my housemate,my classmate, my steamboatmate,my poya-poya mate, my toiletmate,my kitchenmate,my friend...

Happy birthday to a special friend!
Although I haven't known you many years,
Perhaps because you've dried so many tears,
Pleasure reigns as I these greetings send.
Your happiness should last till all things end!

Because you've been so sweet and understanding--
In toughest times you've made me laugh and smile--
Rejoice in your own specialness awhile:
This I'm not requesting but demanding!
How else to make yourself the celebration,
Doing what does not come naturally?
Always your concern has been for me,
Yet now you must endure my adoration!

Nani, may you have wonderful years ahead and filled with joy and laughter. Thank you for being there for me through my ups and downs.Thank you for being a shoulder for me to cry on and to lay on.Your existance in my life,although a bit delayed, has prominently made my life a wonderful and colourful one.I'm sorry i've hurt u in anyway purposely or impurposely.May our friendship last forever.Thank you girl, for being my friend!

Lots of luvss,
Fira Zul

2005-06-26T15:46:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

ah~~~~. je ne peut pas résister m'obtenir un de ceci.je vraiment ne peux pas l'aider. juste la question de jours, m'attendre. j'obtiendrai vous.vous me conduisez fou. je ne peux pas dormir, ne peut pas manger, juste pensant de vous..waduhh mana tahan~~~~

2005-06-20T16:42:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

me super bosan! mood pon malas je..sumer malas skang, nak main golf pon dah malas,asyek2 gi driving range tapi nak masuk course tak mampu(nak club best best je)kalau main kat royal kedah yang murah gila bosam..fairway die strettt je(tu pon shah yg jadi protoge aku leh beat me..hihi)..report tak buat jugak..tapi 4 bende je aku maintain rajen, makan, shopping,berangan dannnnnn AFUNDI MAWI!!! ~~

ini ialah hasil per'angan'nan hari ini:

Career Inventory Test Results

Extroversion		63%
Emotional Stability		56%
Orderliness		46%
Altruism		50%
Inquisitiveness		60%

You are an Inventor, possible professions include - systems designer, venture capitalist, actor, journalist, investment broker, real estate agent, real estate developer, strategic planner, political manager, politician, special projects developer, literary agent, restaurant/bar owner, technical trainer, diversity manager, art director, personnel systems developer, computer analyst, logistics consultant, outplacement consultant, advertising creative director, radio/TV talk show host.

Take Free Career Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

moi?a politician?sanggup ke malaysia??look at this face again malaysia, before u vote for me-->

chihihi

i'm evil!

2005-06-20T11:36:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

I am 48% evil.

I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

wah baiknye aku!!chihi..oh yes, from naz, i've got another life to stalk to(kantoi naz, kau pon stalker gak)since, my stock for my other's-life-stalking-activities have been overstalked and i need some more doses(pathethic x?i really need to get a life,report tak buat buat jugak).so naz, my rakan seperjuangan, yang lagi maha hebat koleksi other's-life-stalking-activities, gave up one of her daily doses.it turn out, to be a super blog from a converted canadian man whom i think has a much more better view,knowledge and understanding about life and being muslim than we do..kalau lah aku boleh kawen ngan die, haih, malangnye die dah kawen..lucky lady eyh!..so guys, check out his blog, ade kat my link, as in JORDAN..so anyway, as usual, weekends are my memasak day as i enjoy cooking so much, but last weekends tak dapat masak sebab we've discovered yang rupenye kat bawah menara alor star tu ade hotspot yang free ok!laju pulak tu..giler lah, ape lagi bukak laptop dan PDA la kan.mesti org alor star tatau pasal bende ni, sbb mcm aku ngan shah je mcm gile nak hack menara alor star tu, duk kat bawah menare main internet sampai tak ingat dunia..sumer mat mat rempit ke org yang lalu lalang di situ, muke cam bapak impress dan sure ingat kiterang ni CIA..haha..kalau kat kl, mmg dah usual scene la kan..so anyway, a few weekends ago i cook up, ayam salai masak lemak cili api enak with sambal kupang ~~tsumawi~~ tsunami and kobis goreng lazat. ingat nak makan kat ofis, but then, another good thing about alor star, die ade taman yang sgt best dan relaxing tapi mat mat rempit sini buat tempat merendek lak, almost sume seat available ade kapel tgh deting, pakai tudung pun boleh peluk peluk baring baring, rimas aku..so,us, being the civilised and un-kampung people, berpicnic lah di tgh tgh taman tu, having a late lunch,sambil berusaha untuk menjadikan diri contoh kepada muda mudi tu supaya tahu, tak salah bercinta, infact bercinta tu harus dalam islam.. tapi buat la bende yang berfaedah sikit..disebabkan, we had a late lunch, so by the time habes makan, org sumer dah stat nak beriadah(tempat tu redup dan rendang, so picninc tgh hari buta pun tak panas)..sekali lagi, kemaluan menusuk kalbu sebagai kaum melayu, sbab yang beriadah tu sumer kaum india dan cina, tapi yang berdeting deting berpeluk-pelukkan di khalayak ramai, sumer melayu...haih haih, pakai tudung lak tu, kot ye pon bukak la tudung tu, at least boleh ngaku org siam..haih..anyway here are some pics of us picnicking than after that we went for a grocery shopping..it was a nice weekends..thank you babe!i really enjoyed it:(btw, sumer pic diambil dgn hellomoto ku, bagus kan?x payah beli digi cam)

that's our lauk!!!

shah was about to mkn,harap tak muntah

tak tau la fake ke tak

aku mmg calon isteri terhebat tau, terer masak serta wiring..chihihi,anyone?

super kenyang!!(siape perasan tu t-shirt ape?hihi)

gile kenyang, sampai nak strap up my sandal pun tak mampu, dihalang oleh perut

and then, the grocery shopping at, ALOR STAR MALL!!

aku muke control, sbb sebenarnye shah tatau i'm about to use his amex..haha

trus joy of the weekends bertukar jadi sorrow for shah,sbb amex nye di pau oleh aku..haha!i sayang u!

and here is the pic, of one budak gemuk yang dijumpai di supermarket, anyway, can;t wait for another excitement of the weekends with shah a.k.a incik dollah, before balek utp..:(((

laughter is the best medicine

2005-06-19T10:22:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

1. Setiap hari Jumaat, pack segala barang ko dan bagitau kat roommate ko nak balik kampung. Selepas sejam, balik ke bilik & terangkan bhw takde org kat rumah. unpack segala brg ko & pegi tidor.
2. Setiap kali roommate ko balik, jerit sekuat hati" horee... ko dah balik". lepas tu menari dlm 5 minit. lepas tu, tenung jam lama2 dan tanya dia "Sepatutnya ko dah belah dah skrg"
3. Setiap kali bangun tido, jerit kuat2 " Tolong, kat mana aku berada ni?" dan lari keliiling bilik tu. Kemudian, sambung tidor. esoknya, kalo dia tanya, pura2 tak tahu apa yg dia cakap.
4. Ambil marker, buat bulatan kecil kat lengan ko. Besarkan bulatan tu setiap hari sambil berkata "Dah merebak- dah merebak"
5. Beli pepokok bonsai. Bercakap & tidor dengan pokok tu setiap hari. Selepas seminggu, bertengkar dgn pokok tu dan cakap "Aku tak boleh hidup sebilik dengan kau lagi" sambil keluar & menghempaskan pintu bilik dgn kuat... Buang pokok tu tapi biarkan pasu kat situ.
6. Duduk didepan papan chess dua-tiga jam tanpa buat apa2 atau cakap apa2. lepas tu cakap, "Siot betul, kalah lagi"
7. Setiap kali roommate ko balik, tutup lampu dan tidor. lepas dia keluar, bangun dan menjerit dgn kuat "Horee... ". bukak lampu semula.
8. pakai topi kertas. Bila dia balik, cakap "Selamat Datang ke McDonald. Boleh saya ambil pesanan anda... " Lepas tu buat muka kurang pandai, sambil berkata "Eh, ko rupanya... "
9. Kata kat roommate ko "Ada pesanan penting untuk ko". Lepas tu buat2 pengsan. Lepas 2-3 jam, bangun dan cakap ko dah lupa pesanan tu. Kemudian, cakap "Eh... aku dah ingat". Lepas tu pengsan balik.
10. Bila roommate ko balik, berpura2 tengah telefon. Caci maki dan menjerit dengan kuat kat telefon tu. Lepas tu letak telefon dan cakap kat roommate ko bhw yg telefon tadi adalah mak dia. Cakap mak dia akan telefon balik.
11. Kalau roommate ko suka gosok gigi kat sinki, perhatikan sampai habis. Lepas dia habis, cakap dengan dia bhw kau perlu ajar dia cara mengosok gigi dengan betul
12. Edarkan risalah ke kawasan kedai/rumah kedai berdekatan rumah kau. Dalam risalah tu, nyatakan bahawa roommate ko hilang. Letak sekali gambar dia dlm risalah tu. Tawarkan hadiah kepada sesiapa yg menjumpai roommate ko.
13. Bila roommate ko tutup lampu pd sebelah malam, nyanyi lagu opera sekuat hati. Bila dia buka balik lampu, buat2 muka kurang pandai dan confused.
14. Duduk & renung roommate ko dlm 2-3 jam. Kalau boleh, bawa member2 sekali sambi makan kacang & popcorn. Buat macam ko tengah tengok wayang.
15. Masa roommate ko xde, ambil deodorant dia. Lepas tu sapukan kat seluruh dinding bilik. Bila dia balik, puji bahawa bilik berbau wangi. Lakukan selalu sampai deodorant tu habis.
16. Kalau roommate ko ada binatang peliharaan, spt kucing, offer utk beri makan kpd binatang tsbt. Cepat2 keluarkan botol gam atau minyak rambut sebelum dia beri persetujuan kpd ko.
17. (Khas Untuk Lelaki Sahaja) Pegang & gosok- gosok rambut roommate ko sambil berkata "Rambut ko hitam, lurus dan berkilat la... Macam teknik rebonding... ". Sekali-sekala buat masa dia tengah tidur.
18. Sembunyikan seluar dalam/baju dalam ko yg telah dipakai bawah bantal roommate ko. Bila dia balik, komplen yg seluar/baju dalam ko hilang. Toksah nak ngada2 pegi cari kat lain, pegi straight kat bantal dia. Lepas tu tuduh roommate ko gila seks...

hantar kepada membe anda dalam 10 minit atau anda akan menjadi bangkai selepas 12 minit.

i'm sorry

2005-06-18T11:42:00.001+08:00

fira wrote: (oh btw, shah and i went for a picnic, will share the pics later yah!)

"I AM SORRY"
A friend called, saying that she was hurt by my writings.Well, honestly, i'm sorry if i hurt u in anyway.But then, quoting kak loly,"This is a place where i get things out of my system. My Hideout. Where I pour my innverview, my thoughts and get in touch with myself." it's my OWN innerview of my OWN happenings of my OWN life.chill la babe,no hard feelings yah!

The good you do today, People will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have, And it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway. People are often unreasonable, Illogical, and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, People may accuse you of having selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, You will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, People may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, Someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, They may be jealous; Be happy anyway. You see, in the final analysis, It is between you and God; It never was between you and them anyway.

2005-06-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

ok u guys, since today is the last weekday for me,here, ive got sumthing for u guys to anggap as the weekends must read..chihihiSomething happened yesterday(no no ppl!!not about my lovelife ya!!chihihi).and that incident really shook me and mak me realised that all these years i'm not who i am.for some ppl who knew me since i was a girl(ladyke skang?) they might think im a very wise and matured person and very self kept and private person.i only talk when the topic of discussion is mind challenging and worth to talk about for hours.u know a topic where u need to think about.i used to have a group of friends whom i enjoyed talking for hours and hours maybe because we shared the same wavelentgh.they were aleq,nazihah,harayz and warayz.mind you, we didn't talk about the curent fashion style, the current movies, the current hype, we mostly talked about the general isues, of people's behaviour, of war of the worlds, of opportunities and circumstances,of politics,of reasons and how being a good muslim, of the road ahead and uncertainties and anything evolve around that.mind you, we were only a bunch of schoolkids back then.and put us all together in a cafe, we might look like a bunch of nenek datuk yang tengah reminiscing about their life.but i enjoyed it very much.u see, it'll make u wise,careful of chosing ur life path.they were all my best buddies, in rank, the closest wud be aleq, then came naz, then harayz and warayz.but those times has passed.especially when u grew up, u can' always seem to cling to same group of frens that u have since u were kid.some choices and roads need to be choose.and, u bid ur final goodbye mutually, and of u go, deciding to make a choice of a diverged road.eversince the final goodbye, i think it was like 5 years ago. Aleq, the closest one of all,my confidant, were going to the states for his degree and he finally found someone whom, he decided to spent his life with.takkan la aku still nak melekat kan..tak seswai..so did warayz and harayz and naz..i donno either aku yang put myself away since aku sentap i have to let go of aleq kan, or that year was meant for us to find our own way..so there i was, alone on a diverged road..not sure which road is the best one..i used to feel big, but when without them, i'm just lost...of options and uncertainties, i chose one...and hell, it was definitely the wrong one..that road was full of hurdles and definitely was a rough water..mistake after mistakes and judgement after judgement and choices after choices has made me forgot of who i am..who i used to be..but come to think of it, maybe i was meant for me to went for that road to test all the theories and thoughts that i've been gibberishing about for years..mcm org ckp, jgn cakap je pandai,sekali kene kat batang hidung baru tau..like dat lah..phewhhh, for 5 years seyhh,lame betul..tetibe rase cm naruto pulak..the syair arab and the incident that shook me betul betul made me realised..buat aku terpikir,"what the hell was i thinking all these years?what happened?"..i woke up this morning, it's like i just woken up from a dream...haih..life is an enigma...u'll never know what will happen next..so this morning, as soon as i got into my office, i saw naz online, cepat cepat msg die..had a veryyyy long chat,mcm u know, close friends that has been separated or years!!at first i wanted to call up aleq,since he was the closest one b4,but then looking now, everything seems changed. Everybody have new commitments in life and suddenly involved in the rat’s race, trying to achieve the things that we have talked for years. it must be weird to call them up and talk like before suddenly in all these years..pretending like there were no drift between us, adn hoping they would still the same, and sangke they still keep u dear in their heart..but luckily, naz is still the same. the conversation was like a piece of me that i was looking for me to complete the puzzle..one of our topic was the incident yesterday, and again it made me realised, ...:

lilacbloome: susahnye lahai nak jadi baik
pheyra: mmg pon
pheyra: come to think of that kan
pheyra: meh aku nak luah perasaan kat kau, sebelom aku luah perasaan kat blog aku
lilacbloome: haha sila2
pheyra: ok, aku, mmg generous and thotful orgnye
pheyra: when i found or find sumthing interesting, aku suke share them with my anybody yg close or within reach ngan aku la kan at that time
pheyra: so, bende lagu tu, kan very meaningful kan, yang kat blog aku tu
pheyra: aku print out a few, and pas kat org yang hampir ngan aku kat sini lah
pheyra: kalau lah, cin kat ofis aku ni paham
pheyra: aku sure kasi deirang gak
pheyra: but, masalahnye, aku pas la kat sorang hamba Allah ni
pheyra: which, aku dah agak tak gune bagi die pon, konfirm die buang
pheyra: tapi, hell,bagi je lah
pheyra: i was expecting for die tu rase betape agungnye tuhan cam aku rase
pheyra: pastu, aku tanye la die, die nak buat ape dgn bende tu, just wanna know la since my first thot die akan buangpheyra: then aku ckp"i think u r gonna throw it"
pheyra: then die cakap,"ha tau pun"
lilacbloome: whoa oke
pheyra: pastu die tanye aku balek pe aku akan buat"for me, aku akan tampal kat dinding so depan sejadah aku so dat everytime bile pas akus emayang, aku akan senang bace"
pheyra: pastu die question aku balek,"u gimme all this, u buat ke bende yang sepatutnye?"
pheyra: i was like, ek eh..aku mcm ckp la "u are in no position to preech or tanye me kan"
pheyra: pastu die ckp balek,"then, u r in no position to give me all this"
pheyra: i was like hellooo, i'm just trying to share something here
pheyra: kalau aku lah kan, penagih dadah ke bapak ayam ke kasi aku bende camtu, aku certainly wud appreciate it
pheyra: pastu, die pulangkan kat aku balek tau, then aku ckp" naah, im giving it to u(yelah kite kan khalifah di muke bumi) so i dah lepas tanggungjawab, kalau u nak buang, u buang sendiri. then i just leave, die pon leave, aku tatau la lah die amek ke, die biarkan je kat situ..
pheyra: oh well
pheyra: aku mcm tak sentap, but mcm sedih, because aku dah kenal die for so longgg mcm aku ngan kau lah, org pandai lak tu...tapi bile dah sombong nan bodoh ni.aku kesian lah..what a waste
pheyra: aku tau la kan aku pon byk dosa, tapi it was not intention to berdakwah ke ape..saje to share because i find it interesting
pheyra: aku tatau lah, i basically like grew up same same ngan die
lilacbloome: maybe dia misinterpret intentions kau
pheyra: study same same
pheyra: so, bile dah besar besar ni, dah kerje sumer. die mcm chang onto this bodoh sombong type la
pheyra: i just donno way, izzit this is die nye way to rebel of how die nye life has turn out to be?
pheyra: kalau aku not being a good friend kan, aku lame dah mcm,lantak kau la bile die started to change dulu
pheyra: so, i being a good friend, mcm ko pon tau kan u know me quite well, aku tak kesah kawan ngan sape sape, n aku tak kan judge of how u r now, i always hold on to r good qualities dah i've known dulu
pheyra: so, aku tak de lah loose hope kat die
pheyra: although sumtimes die nye acts and attitude now buat aku like"oh ok, "mcm terdiam kan
pheyra: i always make my self bleive,"ok tu bukan dia"..tapi yesterday incident, buat aku mcm "haih, tere's no hope, tuhan jyang boleh tolong die skang"
pheyra: u get what i mean x?
lilacbloome: yes2
lilacbloome: tahlah fira, to some ppl it's an insult
lilacbloome: lagi2 kalau yg mak bpk pun lebey krg jugak
lilacbloome: or it's a rebel la
lilacbloome: xpela, not ur lost pun. u've done ur part
pheyra: kau faham jenis yang mcm org org pas kampung bodoh ni
pheyra: yang, ckp beriye iye, hukum hakam sane sini
lilacbloome: hahah
pheyra: tapi die sendiri tak tau
pheyra: kau faham x?
lilacbloome: hmm
lilacbloome: tau2
pheyra: ha mcm tu la
lilacbloome: hmm
lilacbloome: so back to family raisings la i guess
lilacbloome: tu ler komen aku
pheyra: aku kene makan atarax tau mlm tadi sbb memikirkan maslah ini
lilacbloome: pengaruh kuat 2 je, family and peers
lilacbloome: personally for me lah kan
lilacbloome: aku ingat satu je besides God lah
pheyra: ?
lilacbloome: aku perempuan, so dosa aku sebahagiannya ditanggung mak bpk aku.
lilacbloome: jadi memandangkan aku sgt sygkan diorg, aku cubala mengurgkan dosa sbyk mungkin
lilacbloome: kalau org xde agama, tp nak belaja xpe
lilacbloome: tp mostly yg jadi mcm tu
lilacbloome: bukan x tau hukum-hakam
lilacbloome: x nak ikut je
lilacbloome: as simple as that my dear fira
lilacbloome: but hope is still there
lilacbloome: no matter what
pheyra: tapi mcm mane pulak, org ni die nampak secare lahirriah nye mcm tau hukum hakam
pheyra: pgi masjid tunggang tonggek
pheyra: tapi, hati umpawa gelap, jiwa bagaikan mati
pheyra:marahkan anak org sebab taktau hukum hakam, tp anak sendiri tak pas semayang, anak yang dijadikan contoh kepada anak yang kecundang tu yang sebenarnye buat bende yang same di belakang kesedaran dia?
lilacbloome: itu hipokrit namanya
lilacbloome: sama je
pheyra: at to a point, aku rase haayz yang tunggang langgang kat U.S minum pejadah seumr, lagi terang hati nya umpama nian
pheyra: wahhhh very the asma kan
pheyra: aahah
lilacbloome: haha
lilacbloome: tp harayz tuh dia suka soal sgt psl islam nih
lilacbloome: kdg2 aku x tau nak jwb
lilacbloome: benda2 yg mmg wajib tuh dia persoalkan
lilacbloome: tapi dia very good questioner la
lilacbloome: bole buat kat tersentak n terpk
pheyra: aku ckp la"ala harayz, aku rase aku kenal hati budi kau, aku tau ur hope and feras, aku kenal kaulame sgt"so aku cam ckp la, kau tanye sumer ni sbb actually, die nakk and sayang st kat islam, tapi tulah
pheyra: camne aku nak ckp ee?u know, when sumbudy tu has been chosen by god to be the mcm the baikest of all
pheyra: tuhan akan kasi die mcm dasyat gile dan byk gila dugaan
pheyra: tapi up some point bile die dpt overcome that dugaan, die akan jadi sgttt baik dr org lain
lilacbloome: heh perhaps
lilacbloome: tp some ppl sengaja carik dugaan
lilacbloome: so TERduga n kecundang
pheyra: i took this form kisah nabi la, sbb nabi muhammah ckp kat sahabat2 die kan, die lagi sayang this one guy dr shabat sahabat die yang lain
pheyra: and sahabat2 die sentap, sbab that guy tak same level pon ngan shabat sahabat nabi ni
pheyra: but then nabi explain, die lagi sayang that guy, coz that guy, tak penah tanye kbaikan kat nabi, tapi die tanya pasal kejahatan
pheyra: nabi ckp, org yang tau kejahatan, sebenarnye akan lebih tahu and appreciate kebaikan, dr org yang hany tahu kebaikan sahaja, org tulah sebenarnye alpa dan jiwa nya kosong
lilacbloome: it's true in a way
lilacbloome: thats y u learn frm mistakes
lilacbloome: tp amatlah rugi kalau kesilapan yg dia buat tu x dpt diterima oleh org lain kalau dia dah berubah sekalipun
pheyra: tu la pasal
lilacbloome: esp if kesilapan yg melibatkan org

Taking to naz was like a breath of fresh air..this is the kind of conversation we used to have..meaningful..and wise..all these years, i think i've hurt my self so bad, not because of circumstances, but because i chose it myself..u see, u can never change people, or being over protective to some people, sometimes u just need to let them be, and let them learn by their own..i know, it's hard to see the people u hold closed to ur heart to go the way that u really don't want them to be..but what can u do bout it?it's their lives, they decide what they want for their lives..u can't seem to try to make the world a better place and protect everyone to go to the way that u don't want them to just because u've been there and lucky u, u managed to pull out..and because of that, u are afraid, they would go the same cursed way but unable to pull out?wake up!i realised now, that i am in no power to do that...phewh!!ni dah betul betul blog nih..tapi i thank god, i think if not because of that incident, i will never be awake, i might still be living in the solemn world, the world of loose hope and uncertainties, almost a world of fantasies, where i wasn't belong. i know i am much worth than that..what have i done?tapi tulah, people who fell and rise up from their mistakes, org tu org yang berjaye kan..but it a sense of friendship it made me realised, a true friend are a friend who actually was like an inch away no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A friend is never farther away than needing her can reach. When you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to walk it for yourself, your friend will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.I forgot about i all these years, and im happy i'm not that late to realise it now..i'm so much worthy, tapi aku tak perasan, i've sold my dignity and patronized my own wisdom..sheeshh, but hey,when we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joy or sorrow that lay ahead.It takes years of experiences and a very good judgement to manouver the rough waters.I'm glad i have learned the experience.Thank God!

"Di suatu malam dari malam-malamku..Aku tidak tahu apa yang menimpa diriku wahai tuhan..Kegelapan memenuhi diriku wahai Tuhan..Bumi dan Langit dirasakan sempit..Dan hatiku tidak menjumpai cahaya..Dan air mataku sentiasa mengalir wahai Tuhanku..Aku ingkar dan dosa-dosa besar..Dan sesungguhnya aku dalam kesedihan yang amat..Dibelenggu oleh dosa-dosa, wahai Tuhan..Dan adakah layak keampunan buat orang yang berdosa?..Orang yang sentiasa dalam noda, Wahai Tuhan..Engkau yang menjadikanku..Mengasisihiku dan mengurniakanku rezeki..Wahai Tuhan, Engkau selalu bersama-samaku..Tetapi aku jauh daripadaMu..Dan aku berjalan pada jalanku Ya Allah..Dan pada hari ini wahai Tuhan, aku kembali..Daripada kegelapan di belakang batasan-batasan agama..Dan hatiku kecewa dan jalanku bingung..Dan aku telah tenggelam tetapi aku tidak menyedari..Tiada penyelamat bagiku melainkan Engkau..Tiada penyelamat dan tiada penyelamat melainkan Engkau..Wahai Tuhanku.. Wahai Tuhanku..."

kerdilnya diri ini

2005-06-15T17:30:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

sob sob, call me sissy, tapi tentang kebesaran Allah dan kekerdilan diri ini, aku mmg sensitif la..sob sob..herm, to ally mac beal fan(aku one of them) u might remember ade satu lagu ni, however i can't seem to upload that song, coz i found it on Asma's blogspot.click on her and u guys listen to it.kat sini, i'll paste up the lyrics and the meanings. Well, aku browse tru a few blogs of my frens', came across Asma's(my ex-stfian) then perasan the melody of the song mcm kat one of the song kat citer Ally Mac Beal.tapi in a foreign language, but knowing Asma', who is wayyy different form Kerel(u uh u ol, die adek kerel), mesti arabic ni..scroll down under, nampak the lyrics,..then the meanings..pas bace the meaning, terase kerdil ye diri ini dan rase malu sgt dengan tuhan, rase mcm nak lari ke nearest masjid skang and menangis, dan memohon keampunan yang amat sgt..haih,astargfirullahhalazimallazilahuwalhaiyulkaiyum...i cannot speak now..rase nak balek rumah la skang...rase nak turn back time and serve myself to God..tuhan tau tak yang betape aku sayang kat Dia, and how i never meant to hurt Him..haih... aku nak balik...Click here

Fi lailateen minal layali..
Lastu adri ma taraani..
Dzhulmatun taghmuruni ya Rabb..
Al ardhu dhoqats was samaa'..
Wa qalbi ma raffa dhiya'..
Wa tamdzata yabki Ya Ilahi..
Ya Ilahi, ya Ilahi, ya ilahi, ya Ilahi..'
Asoitu wa zanbuka bik..
Wa inni fi huzni aasif..
Muqayyadun bidzanbi ya Rabb..
Fahal yastahiku ya Ilahi `afumujirma..
bidzdzunubi Ya ilahi..
Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi..
Antal ladzi khalaqtani..Rahimtani wa razaqtani..
Dauman ya Rabbi qad kunta mai'e..
Lakinnani na'aitu ank..
Naseetu ma qad kaana lak..
Wasiltu fi tareeqi ya Ilahi..
Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi..
Walyauma ya
Rabbi a'ud min zulmatin khalfalhadud..
Falqalbumun kasirun wa tarfi hi aier..
Waanal ghariku fala araa ila siwaka li munkidza..
La manja wa la manja illa anta..

Translation:
Di suatu malam dari malam-malamku..
Aku tidak tahu apa yang menimpa diriku wahai tuhan..
Kegelapan memenuhi diriku wahai Tuhan..
Bumi dan Langit dirasakan sempit..
Dan hatiku tidak menjumpai cahaya..
Dan air mataku sentiasa mengalir wahai Tuhanku..
Aku ingkar dan dosa-dosa besar..
Dan sesungguhnya aku dalam kesedihan yang amat..
Dibelenggu oleh dosa-dosa, wahai Tuhan..
Dan adakah layak keampunan buat orang yang berdosa?..
Orang yang sentiasa dalam noda,
Wahai Tuhan..
Engkau yang menjadikanku..
Mengasisihiku dan mengurniakanku rezeki..
Wahai Tuhan,
Engkau selalu bersama-samaku..
Tetapi aku jauh daripadaMu..
Dan aku berjalan pada jalanku Ya Allah..
Dan pada hari ini wahai Tuhan, aku kembali..
Daripada kegelapan di belakang batasan-batasan agama..
Dan hatiku kecewa dan jalanku bingung..
Dan aku telah tenggelam tetapi aku tidak menyedari..
Tiada penyelamat bagiku melainkan Engkau..
Tiada penyelamat dan tiada penyelamat melainkan Engkau..
Wahai Tuhanku..
Wahai Tuhanku...

i'm a true lover

2005-06-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

True

What Type of Lover Are You?
brought to you by

joy ride~~~

2005-06-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

last saturday,moi ikut mon chere pegi service motor die..since tempat service tu kat pekan bawah je my apartment kan(apartment aku happening ok!!)..tapi it was 6pm, so byk kedai nak tutup dah(biaselah, ni kan kat austin,texas)..i lurveeee joyriding with him!!..sebab angin kuat and paleng best, leh harass shah...hahahaha..i likkeee ..bagus la ade camera phone ni..u'll never miss a moment

YAY!!tudung terletak dgn cantiknye!!

tudung serabai balek oleh gust of winds...ahhh~~

yippeeee~~~~~

tgh harrass shah..kinky tak muke??

utk naz

2005-06-14T12:18:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

khas utk incik nazri bardan a.k.a wak suparjo

oleh kerana tag tak muat, so saya dedikasikan lagu ini tuk reply tag incik, ia adalah chorus lagu don't cha oleh the pussycatdolls..chorus je, sebab yang lain tak seswai..terimalah~~~

Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?

Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?

Don't cha

Don't cha wish your girlfriend was wrong like me?

Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?

Don't cha

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

~~hai nani!!baik la kau nih!!chihi~~

2005-06-10T18:10:00.000+08:00

THE BIRTHDAY ~~MAN~~ BOY!!!

Last tuesday was shah's ~~26th~~ birthday.I, being the sweetest sweetheart ~~last minute~~ surprise birthday dinner~~since tak sempat beli hadiah~~ despite the fact yang aku bapak bz!!!..it went well althogh everything was in a rush..I would like to thank first and foremost, kak aya, my dearest admin asst for helping me to run here and there(sorry tak dpt bayar OT),thanks to the F&B manager of the restaurant and also the crew for making it splendidly happened..so anyway:

Time: 9 pm
Date: 6th June 2005
Venue: Restoran Berputar Sri Angkasa, Menara Alor Star

1.Driving,birthday boy jadi driver 2 & 3.Boring faces still thinking this is just a usual dinner reservation(tapi die still tak perasan, our table je yang exclusively decorated siap ade lilin..duhh)

Untill suddenly.......

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!

chihihi, sweet tak aku?bile dah abes melantak tu, sampai ilang vouge sumer..aku tunggu punye la tunggu, bil lah the crew nak kuarkan shah nye cake secare surprisenye..shah muke dah bosan bosan,aku mcm tak se'bubbly' as usual, sebab worried sick takut tak jadi kan..then tetibe, the whole restaurant nye lampu dim, pastu the pianist start to say sumthing,which i can only hear table 13(our table lah) then the F&B manager herself, came out with the cake...chihihi.aku pulak yang tak larat, accompanied by the birthday song by the pianist..the whole crew sumer keluar to watch the 'scene'..shah muke cam selenge selenge, like mix emotion camtu...leh aku tau, kalau die pompuan die sure nanges..just sebab mlm tu die pakai suit je, trus control..hehhee..then like the whole menara nyanyi the birthday song to him and applaud.tapi yang keji nye, it was an ice cream cake, so dlm si shah control control, lame sgt die tersengih sengih kat org ramai, cake tu hampir cair..ceh..but, the sweet F&B manager yang apologize pulak..chihihi..tanyway, that night was great and memorable..again, aku yang terer ni managed to pull a wonderful event for my sweet darling..aku mmg sweet dan romantic, aku tau..patut la aku tak dijadikan lelaki, sebab nanti ramai sgt anak dara yang pengsan2 nak kan aku..hehhe..i'm capable of doing anything to make my sayang happy, oh did i tell u guys i made the bouquet with the baci choc terselit2, and teddy bear in the middle,with big silver ribbon by myself?wihtou any experience at all??and in just 30 minutes!!i'm so proud myself..yap, i'd do anything for him, from arranging a bouequet of flowers to buat curtain utk die..mind you, i did't just buy and send the curtain to tailor, i even went to the hardware store to buy the cirtain rail, and drill the wall up, and screw the rail in, all by my self, 10 feet high..mase tu shah outstation for 2 weerks..chihi..i can cook the greatest, kari,kurma,or anything, u name it, up to repairing all the electrical appliances in his house,wiring and stuffs and of course my major, saving my baby dari diserang creepy crawlies"cibi cibi, lipas!!cibi cibi,labah labah(yang kecik kaki cam benang tu)..eh cibi!!ape tu???!!"..just call my name, and i'll b there to save him..hehehh...all without experience, sumer main belasah je, and promptly..wanna how and why?it's the love...yerp, love can make people do things that they don;t have any idea of..chihi..untung ok sape dapat aku..superhuman tau..sumer boleh!!just name it!!(kempen kempen)..chihi, so anyway,

"Sayang, Happy 26th Birthday!! May lady luck always with you.Semoga dimurahkan rezeki,panang umur dan sihat sejahtera..I LOVE YOU~~~~"

the rest of the pictures(yerp, I'M FAT!!):

waiting for the lift, my first vain attempt to where tudung to occasions which obviously has failed,,haiyoo!!nampak sgt amateur..berkecah tudung aku

menara alor star(tak nampak lah gelap, sorry)

The pianist that accompanied us

uh sedapnya

2005-06-10T17:56:00.000+08:00

shah wrote:

erm menu untuk hari ni ada kari ayam+kentang+bendi, telur dadar, sambal belacan, tempe, and pucuk paku. semuanya sedap especially kari yang cibi masak, everything was made with love and passion, that what makes simple things become so delightful. Plus having lunch with the person u love most. right cibi?

hak!

2005-06-08T16:21:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

aahh~~~ aku dah habes presentation~~~sgt lega~~siap kene puji!!ahaks!!!

horror~~

2005-06-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

haiyo horor horror~~~..aku ade final presentation kul 2 ni..mcm mcm feeling ade..b4 this aku rileks ajer..tak rase ape ape..siap slides leh buat las minute gile..tadi baru siap..pastu satu screen shot tertinggal lak..tgh tunggu email..jap lagi baru nak print and bind..haih..skang ni, aku rase nak terberak, nak termuntah..bukan butterfly je ade, segale burung peacock, zoo sumer ade dlm perut aku ni...haih~~menanti detik dan waktu ni, menyakitkan hati ler.keji!!..haih, seb baik YM nye new release ni sumer lagu best best...haihh~~horror horror~~, u all doakan utk i..dah la si shuid ni org ckp very the unpredictable..aku saje je bat slides nampak grand, kang die tanye nye aku bukan bukan, mampus aku nak jawab...dah la aku surang je buat keje networking, org lain sumer buat programming...haihh hororr horror, aku nak type pun mcm tak daye dah..dah la, nak berangan,lagi menenangkan...

buzy bee

2005-06-06T16:30:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

today super bz!!baru sempat bukak tenet ni ha..pagi tadi pegi site semua..pastu last minute preparation tuk tonite shah's surprise besday dinner..(takpe, die pun tgh bz gile skang, takkan bace blog ni untuk sementara waktu ni,,chihi)pastu ngan slide preparation tuk rabu ni...argg argg..anyway, my family and i went for a shopping last wikens..best giller!!will update bile dah ade mase keh!!..bye peeps~~~to sayang, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

saya sudah berhijrah!!

2005-06-03T14:19:00.000+08:00

yes kawan kawan!!saya sudah bertudung!!!, well at least i'm trying to..walaupun ade kalenye terbang jua sehelai kain tu..well ppl, changes are hard..but i'm trying my best to purified my soul la kan..sbb to me tudung is not a trend..kalau hati dah bersih,suci sumer kan..nanti keinginan bertudung tu datang dgn sendirinye, sbb u know u have to obliged the rules that God has layed down for us..and every rules they are the reason underneath it, i believe islam is a very nice,sweet,practical and reasonable religion..once u understand the reason..u'll be willingly to obliged the rule..islam ni halus dan berseni, tu kekadang org susah nak paham..so anyway, as some of u might know i'm going for my hajj in this december, insyaAllah...walaupun aku anak yang tak guna, aku taknak la membazer duit mak ayah aku berbelas-belas ribu utk aku gi haji saje sbb mak aku suruh kan...i can if i want, tapi aku mmg nak mendekatkan diri dgn tuhan..cewahhh..from my experience of pegi umrah twice(ttp mcm ni kan), mekah and midanah is the most peacefual and tranquil place i have ever been..i have this kindda,overwhelmed feeling when i'm there..aku nanges bile ade dekat ngan kubur nabi..i feel like, i'm very near to god, dan kekasihNya..subhanallah..lagipun, i've heard sumwhere, bile kite berwukuf di araf..tuhan akan turun to the lowest level of langit and say,"look, there are my ppl"..and GOD!,that is the the nearest u can get to got...dah la dosa aku mcm 44 kali ganda buih2 di lautan kan..kalau raihan kate dosa depa sebanyak buih di lautan, aku ni apetah lagi?haih~~~~words can't depict my feelings...hanye maha suci tuhan je yang tau..so anyway, aku on the journey of soul purificationla kan..sbb aku pun teringin nak jadi tetamu tuhan...tp, changes can't be in overnite...so peeps, pray for me yah!!!

saya manusia boring

2005-06-02T14:08:00.000+08:00

fira wrote(mmg selama ni pun mmg aku je yang tules):

u must be thinking I am a pathethic human being sampai leh sumbit banyak entries blog per day kan..tapi hakikatnya, project dah habes, mmg membosankan ye duduk di ofis ni..dah la shah takde...:U..nak tau betape bosannye ofis ni, sila lihat gambarajah di bawah:

ini ialah saya tetido ketika sedang configure router!!

inilah aktiviti kami...uncle dino, ade di biliknya ketika kejadian ini berlaku..siap kekadang, leh gi ofis die, bukak sofa bed tido, ketika die sedang mengadap komputer die..mse tu, asistant manager yang bodoh tu belum kerja lagi....skang die dah ade, jgn mimpi okay..I HATE U!

another boring day

2005-06-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

shah left for kl yesterday for meetings after lunch..manage to merendek dgn die from morning to lunch before he went off...haih~~me feeling lonely~~..seb baik mak ngan ayah are coming over today..ETA 4pm..and guess what, aku tak mop rumah lagi!!.horrorr~~ .lunch ni baru nak mop..mak and kak zana are very particular about cleanliness and hygenic thingy..aku biase la.. simbol kemalasan yang abadi...harusla bile mak ayah aku dtg je baru rumah tu nak bermop segale kan..chiihihi..tapi takpe, aku superhuman dan hipokrit..i'll make sure by the time they reach my apartment semua tiptop!..memandangkan semalam mc kerana ingin merendek dgn shah for the last time before he went off, arinih tetibe byk keje..dah la laptop takde, si aku punye assistant manager yang SANGKE BOSS tu bawak balek kl, dahla bukan laptop die..BOSS sebenar office ni kasi kat aku utk senang buat keje keje troubleshooting..tapi aku ade la desktop aku sendiri, tapi RAM mcm babi, seb baik gaji dah masuk arinih so boleh beli RAM baru..talking about aku nye sangke boss from hell ni..eee tolong la, it's a mistake aku kenalkan die kat office ni..yes, aku yang recommend die and i'm regretting it now..si shah beli hardisk tray dari die, and mase tu pulak die tanye shah ade keje kosong tak, aku saje suh die try kat company aku ni..sekali dpt kan, jadi assistant manager gaji 2100 jahh~~pastu berangan habes bos..plisla. sbb kebetulan a week after die kerje, boss office ni kene gi vietnam..dah la konfiden gile ckp kat sorang admin kat sini "nanti uncle D dah balek vietnam to take over branch sana, i jadi boss sini"..la hai, like hello~~~mementang admin tu nampak diamm je, padehal belakang kumpat gak..chihii..dahla, dapat keje ni trough aku, satu hapak thank you pun tak ckp, dulu konon mase baru nak mintak keje, nak belanje aku makan seafood lah kat kuala perlis..bodoh!..aku nak kumpat die dgn lebeh lanjut boleh la, tapi nanti blog aku jadi cerpen..so kesimpulannye, die sux, mcm sial..kalau lah kau tau, satu ofis ni tak suke kau...dah la undermind boss sebenar ofis ni..pastu nak ridicule2 aku..pastu die jenes cina racism ni tau..keji,, org lain dlm ofis ni pon cina gak..sumer ok je...takde racism lansung..pastu nak tukar environment kiterang kat sini..tak kasi chat lah ape lah...haloooo uncle dino(boss sini) pun tak kesah ok!pastu suke kipas boss boss lain..pastu yang lagi lahanat, die ingat bapak aku org2 biase je?tu la aku cakap cina racism ni, mmg la ni company cina, tapi bukan cina mcm kau bodoh!!bapak aku one of board directors ok!!..aku takkan la nak hebah kat die aku anak bos aku anak bos..kalau aku bukan anak bos pon tak payah la ridicule aku kan..mase bapak aku datang kedah office, saje nak observe kan, die tak respect lansung..bodoh!..las las, recently ade sorang engineer sini cakap pasal sumthing bout my dad la..then si bodoh ni ckp"eh ur father one of the directors ke?"..aku pon ape lagi, inilah masenye "ha ah, yes he is"..muke trus berubah ok..baru kau tau..ee benci la ade org bodoh mcm ni..dah la qualification diploma je..sok kau grad, aku lagi qualified dr kau ok!!..kau tak tau ke kau jadi assitant manager kat sini bodo bodo je, sebab kat kedah ni setakat ofis kecik, cam kedai runcit je..bunyi cam grand la assistant manager tu, tapi kalau kau balek hq..kau hanye lah pangkat technician biase..hahahbodoh!!malas nak layan org org perasan lagi sangka ni..kalau aku jahat dan masih berdendam ngan kau, lepas aku grad nanti, aku suh bapak aku jadikan aku, bos kepada bos kepada bos kau..biyar aku lak ridicule kau!!!hahaha..bodoh punye org!!

Doa seorang kekasih

2005-06-01T07:03:00.000+08:00

while wasting my time utilising the broadband facility provided by the company for me to actually finish my job, i found a very very interesting prayer..i guess, my time not wasted after all..i almost shed a tear ...it definitly has touched my soul..and shah's too..(memandangkan kiterang super soulmate kan up to point we thought that we are actually a conjoint twin tapi that delivery seagulls tu salah deliver..chihihi)..so here goes, may the Al-Mighty grant our prayer..

Oh Tuhan, seandainya telah Kau catatkan
Dia milikku, tercipta untuk diriku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan

Ya Allah, ku mohon
Apa yang telah Kau takdirkan
Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku
Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku
Pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah
Beri kekuatan jua harapan
Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya
Semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa
Ku pasrah kepada Mu
Kurniakanlah aku
Pasangan yang beriman
Bisa menemani aku
Supaya ku dan dia
Dapat melayar bahtera
Ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pengasih
Engkau sahaja pemeliharanku
Dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini
Jangan Engkau biarkan ku sendiri
Agarku bisa bahagia
Walau tanpa bersamanya
Gantikanlah yang hilang
Tumbuhkan yang telah patah
Ku inginkan bahagia
Di dunia dan akhirat
PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segala... "

-Amin-

gossip gossip

2005-05-31T16:20:00.000+08:00

fira wrote:

my mom and i went for some jewelleries shopping at habib recently. she has always been a very fair mother.when she bought stuff for my sisters, she will buy the same thing for me, even if i don't want too, or she would give the same amount of cash that she used to buy my sisters the things. so before that, my mom bought some bracelet at habib for my elder sister, and she was waiting for me to come home so that she could buy me one of my own choice..but i never like jewelerries especially gold..pastu pulak, my mom has this addiction to habib, dari aku nye first rantai sampai la la ni..memule taknak, then teringat ade tiffany & co nye new charm bracelet, so i thought i wanna go for it, as an exchange for the habib stuffs..tapi after dragging my mom to tiffany, she didn't approve it..die kate takde value..haiyaa..nak kene habib jugak..tapi takde design yang aku berkenan pon..at that time la..so window shopping je lah..sekali rafidah aziz masuk..hermm, ape lagi aku ngan mak aku trus la tukar kpd gossip mode..pegi dekat dekat dia..trus manager habib tu kuar(hensem okay!mak aku suh aku kawen ngan die..chihhi)"erm mcm mane ngan my set" "yes, datuk, we've made it ready for you"..wah set diamond ok!! very the~~..lepas tu, tetibe aku tgk mak aku dah bersalam ngan die dah..eh she's so nice..very friendly, she smile and hulur tangan to my mom first!impressive...bagus la, we need a lot of leaders like her..i'll vote for her next time!!.chihihi!! btw, don't be fooled by my mom innocent look..sgt best ok gossip ngan die!very resourceful!ahaks..kemane tumpahnye kuar kalau tidak ke nasik kan..chihhi

thee hee heee

2005-05-31T12:41:00.000+08:00

The University of Blogging

Presents to
Zafirah M.Z

An Honorary
Bachelor of
Gossip

Majoring in
Quiz Addiction

Signed
Dr. GoQuiz.com

The University of Blogging

Presents to
Ahmad shah

An Honorary
Bachelor of
Boredom

Majoring in
Cutting

Signed
Dr. GoQuiz.com

hermmmm, no komen lah..can they just tell what u are by name? thee heee hee.. mcm betul je..i loveeeeeeee to gossipssss...i can be a real kaki borak..anyone can be my victim...from my mak ngah yang sangat stern,which her child pon respect her so much,(but i still manage to borak with her like for hours) right to my adik sedare yang darjah 4 that donno anything..be it sumbudy at the airport, tgh beli paper kat market, and of course my bossom buddies!!..chihi..and as for shah, oh well...the degree syas it all...chihihi.. hey, opposite attracts isnt it?

yay!

2005-05-31T11:20:00.000+08:00

yay! our own blog together!!