Tuesday, June 28, 2005

fira wrote:


you're rachel...sophisticated and cosmopolitan, but
a little on the shallow side. your friends
envy the ease with which you attract members of
the opposite sex, but they know they'll always
come first.

which Friends character are you?

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Firash winks
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Sunday, June 26, 2005

shah and fira wrote:


HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!!



Specially From FiraFebeles

To Miss Uzwani Mahmud my best friend,my housemate,my classmate, my steamboatmate,my poya-poya mate, my toiletmate,my kitchenmate,my friend...

Happy birthday to a special friend!
Although I haven't known you many years,
Perhaps because you've dried so many tears,
Pleasure reigns as I these greetings send.
Your happiness should last till all things end!

Because you've been so sweet and understanding--
In toughest times you've made me laugh and smile--
Rejoice in your own specialness awhile:
This I'm not requesting but demanding!
How else to make yourself the celebration,
Doing what does not come naturally?
Always your concern has been for me,
Yet now you must endure my adoration!

Nani, may you have wonderful years ahead and filled with joy and laughter. Thank you for being there for me through my ups and downs.Thank you for being a shoulder for me to cry on and to lay on.Your existance in my life,although a bit delayed, has prominently made my life a wonderful and colourful one.I'm sorry i've hurt u in anyway purposely or impurposely.May our friendship last forever.Thank you girl, for being my friend!

Lots of luvss,
Fira Zul

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Firash winks
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fira wrote:



ah~~~~. je ne peut pas résister m'obtenir un de ceci.je vraiment ne peux pas l'aider. juste la question de jours, m'attendre. j'obtiendrai vous.vous me conduisez fou. je ne peux pas dormir, ne peut pas manger, juste pensant de vous..waduhh mana tahan~~~~

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Firash winks
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Monday, June 20, 2005

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Firash winks
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fira wrote:


I am 48% evil.




I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.


Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

wah baiknye aku!!chihi..oh yes, from naz, i've got another life to stalk to(kantoi naz, kau pon stalker gak)since, my stock for my other's-life-stalking-activities have been overstalked and i need some more doses(pathethic x?i really need to get a life,report tak buat buat jugak).so naz, my rakan seperjuangan, yang lagi maha hebat koleksi other's-life-stalking-activities, gave up one of her daily doses.it turn out, to be a super blog from a converted canadian man whom i think has a much more better view,knowledge and understanding about life and being muslim than we do..kalau lah aku boleh kawen ngan die, haih, malangnye die dah kawen..lucky lady eyh!..so guys, check out his blog, ade kat my link, as in JORDAN..so anyway, as usual, weekends are my memasak day as i enjoy cooking so much, but last weekends tak dapat masak sebab we've discovered yang rupenye kat bawah menara alor star tu ade hotspot yang free ok!laju pulak tu..giler lah, ape lagi bukak laptop dan PDA la kan.mesti org alor star tatau pasal bende ni, sbb mcm aku ngan shah je mcm gile nak hack menara alor star tu, duk kat bawah menare main internet sampai tak ingat dunia..sumer mat mat rempit ke org yang lalu lalang di situ, muke cam bapak impress dan sure ingat kiterang ni CIA..haha..kalau kat kl, mmg dah usual scene la kan..so anyway, a few weekends ago i cook up, ayam salai masak lemak cili api enak with sambal kupang tsumawi tsunami and kobis goreng lazat. ingat nak makan kat ofis, but then, another good thing about alor star, die ade taman yang sgt best dan relaxing tapi mat mat rempit sini buat tempat merendek lak, almost sume seat available ade kapel tgh deting, pakai tudung pun boleh peluk peluk baring baring, rimas aku..so,us, being the civilised and un-kampung people, berpicnic lah di tgh tgh taman tu, having a late lunch,sambil berusaha untuk menjadikan diri contoh kepada muda mudi tu supaya tahu, tak salah bercinta, infact bercinta tu harus dalam islam.. tapi buat la bende yang berfaedah sikit..disebabkan, we had a late lunch, so by the time habes makan, org sumer dah stat nak beriadah(tempat tu redup dan rendang, so picninc tgh hari buta pun tak panas)..sekali lagi, kemaluan menusuk kalbu sebagai kaum melayu, sbab yang beriadah tu sumer kaum india dan cina, tapi yang berdeting deting berpeluk-pelukkan di khalayak ramai, sumer melayu...haih haih, pakai tudung lak tu, kot ye pon bukak la tudung tu, at least boleh ngaku org siam..haih..anyway here are some pics of us picnicking than after that we went for a grocery shopping..it was a nice weekends..thank you babe!i really enjoyed it:(btw, sumer pic diambil dgn hellomoto ku, bagus kan?x payah beli digi cam)

that's our lauk!!!

shah was about to mkn,harap tak muntah

tak tau la fake ke tak

aku mmg calon isteri terhebat tau, terer masak serta wiring..chihihi,anyone?

super kenyang!!(siape perasan tu t-shirt ape?hihi)

gile kenyang, sampai nak strap up my sandal pun tak mampu, dihalang oleh perut


and then, the grocery shopping at, ALOR STAR MALL!!


aku muke control, sbb sebenarnye shah tatau i'm about to use his amex..haha


trus joy of the weekends bertukar jadi sorrow for shah,sbb amex nye di pau oleh aku..haha!i sayang u!

and here is the pic, of one budak gemuk yang dijumpai di supermarket, anyway, can;t wait for another excitement of the weekends with shah a.k.a incik dollah, before balek utp..:(((

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Firash winks
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Sunday, June 19, 2005

fira wrote:

1. Setiap hari Jumaat, pack segala barang ko dan bagitau kat roommate ko nak balik kampung. Selepas sejam, balik ke bilik & terangkan bhw takde org kat rumah. unpack segala brg ko & pegi tidor.
2. Setiap kali roommate ko balik, jerit sekuat hati" horee... ko dah balik". lepas tu menari dlm 5 minit. lepas tu, tenung jam lama2 dan tanya dia "Sepatutnya ko dah belah dah skrg"
3. Setiap kali bangun tido, jerit kuat2 " Tolong, kat mana aku berada ni?" dan lari keliiling bilik tu. Kemudian, sambung tidor. esoknya, kalo dia tanya, pura2 tak tahu apa yg dia cakap.
4. Ambil marker, buat bulatan kecil kat lengan ko. Besarkan bulatan tu setiap hari sambil berkata "Dah merebak- dah merebak"
5. Beli pepokok bonsai. Bercakap & tidor dengan pokok tu setiap hari. Selepas seminggu, bertengkar dgn pokok tu dan cakap "Aku tak boleh hidup sebilik dengan kau lagi" sambil keluar & menghempaskan pintu bilik dgn kuat... Buang pokok tu tapi biarkan pasu kat situ.
6. Duduk didepan papan chess dua-tiga jam tanpa buat apa2 atau cakap apa2. lepas tu cakap, "Siot betul, kalah lagi"
7. Setiap kali roommate ko balik, tutup lampu dan tidor. lepas dia keluar, bangun dan menjerit dgn kuat "Horee... ". bukak lampu semula.
8. pakai topi kertas. Bila dia balik, cakap "Selamat Datang ke McDonald. Boleh saya ambil pesanan anda... " Lepas tu buat muka kurang pandai, sambil berkata "Eh, ko rupanya... "
9. Kata kat roommate ko "Ada pesanan penting untuk ko". Lepas tu buat2 pengsan. Lepas 2-3 jam, bangun dan cakap ko dah lupa pesanan tu. Kemudian, cakap "Eh... aku dah ingat". Lepas tu pengsan balik.
10. Bila roommate ko balik, berpura2 tengah telefon. Caci maki dan menjerit dengan kuat kat telefon tu. Lepas tu letak telefon dan cakap kat roommate ko bhw yg telefon tadi adalah mak dia. Cakap mak dia akan telefon balik.
11. Kalau roommate ko suka gosok gigi kat sinki, perhatikan sampai habis. Lepas dia habis, cakap dengan dia bhw kau perlu ajar dia cara mengosok gigi dengan betul
12. Edarkan risalah ke kawasan kedai/rumah kedai berdekatan rumah kau. Dalam risalah tu, nyatakan bahawa roommate ko hilang. Letak sekali gambar dia dlm risalah tu. Tawarkan hadiah kepada sesiapa yg menjumpai roommate ko.
13. Bila roommate ko tutup lampu pd sebelah malam, nyanyi lagu opera sekuat hati. Bila dia buka balik lampu, buat2 muka kurang pandai dan confused.
14. Duduk & renung roommate ko dlm 2-3 jam. Kalau boleh, bawa member2 sekali sambi makan kacang & popcorn. Buat macam ko tengah tengok wayang.
15. Masa roommate ko xde, ambil deodorant dia. Lepas tu sapukan kat seluruh dinding bilik. Bila dia balik, puji bahawa bilik berbau wangi. Lakukan selalu sampai deodorant tu habis.
16. Kalau roommate ko ada binatang peliharaan, spt kucing, offer utk beri makan kpd binatang tsbt. Cepat2 keluarkan botol gam atau minyak rambut sebelum dia beri persetujuan kpd ko.
17. (Khas Untuk Lelaki Sahaja) Pegang & gosok- gosok rambut roommate ko sambil berkata "Rambut ko hitam, lurus dan berkilat la... Macam teknik rebonding... ". Sekali-sekala buat masa dia tengah tidur.
18. Sembunyikan seluar dalam/baju dalam ko yg telah dipakai bawah bantal roommate ko. Bila dia balik, komplen yg seluar/baju dalam ko hilang. Toksah nak ngada2 pegi cari kat lain, pegi straight kat bantal dia. Lepas tu tuduh roommate ko gila seks...

hantar kepada membe anda dalam 10 minit atau anda akan menjadi bangkai selepas 12 minit.

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Firash winks
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Saturday, June 18, 2005

fira wrote: (oh btw, shah and i went for a picnic, will share the pics later yah!)

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Firash winks
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Thursday, June 16, 2005

fira wrote:

ok u guys, since today is the last weekday for me,here, ive got sumthing for u guys to anggap as the weekends must read..chihihiSomething happened yesterday(no no ppl!!not about my lovelife ya!!chihihi).and that incident really shook me and mak me realised that all these years i'm not who i am.for some ppl who knew me since i was a girl(ladyke skang?) they might think im a very wise and matured person and very self kept and private person.i only talk when the topic of discussion is mind challenging and worth to talk about for hours.u know a topic where u need to think about.i used to have a group of friends whom i enjoyed talking for hours and hours maybe because we shared the same wavelentgh.they were aleq,nazihah,harayz and warayz.mind you, we didn't talk about the curent fashion style, the current movies, the current hype, we mostly talked about the general isues, of people's behaviour, of war of the worlds, of opportunities and circumstances,of politics,of reasons and how being a good muslim, of the road ahead and uncertainties and anything evolve around that.mind you, we were only a bunch of schoolkids back then.and put us all together in a cafe, we might look like a bunch of nenek datuk yang tengah reminiscing about their life.but i enjoyed it very much.u see, it'll make u wise,careful of chosing ur life path.they were all my best buddies, in rank, the closest wud be aleq, then came naz, then harayz and warayz.but those times has passed.especially when u grew up, u can' always seem to cling to same group of frens that u have since u were kid.some choices and roads need to be choose.and, u bid ur final goodbye mutually, and of u go, deciding to make a choice of a diverged road.eversince the final goodbye, i think it was like 5 years ago. Aleq, the closest one of all,my confidant, were going to the states for his degree and he finally found someone whom, he decided to spent his life with.takkan la aku still nak melekat kan..tak seswai..so did warayz and harayz and naz..i donno either aku yang put myself away since aku sentap i have to let go of aleq kan, or that year was meant for us to find our own way..so there i was, alone on a diverged road..not sure which road is the best one..i used to feel big, but when without them, i'm just lost...of options and uncertainties, i chose one...and hell, it was definitely the wrong one..that road was full of hurdles and definitely was a rough water..mistake after mistakes and judgement after judgement and choices after choices has made me forgot of who i am..who i used to be..but come to think of it, maybe i was meant for me to went for that road to test all the theories and thoughts that i've been gibberishing about for years..mcm org ckp, jgn cakap je pandai,sekali kene kat batang hidung baru tau..like dat lah..phewhhh, for 5 years seyhh,lame betul..tetibe rase cm naruto pulak..the syair arab and the incident that shook me betul betul made me realised..buat aku terpikir,"what the hell was i thinking all these years?what happened?"..i woke up this morning, it's like i just woken up from a dream...haih..life is an enigma...u'll never know what will happen next..so this morning, as soon as i got into my office, i saw naz online, cepat cepat msg die..had a veryyyy long chat,mcm u know, close friends that has been separated or years!!at first i wanted to call up aleq,since he was the closest one b4,but then looking now, everything seems changed. Everybody have new commitments in life and suddenly involved in the rat’s race, trying to achieve the things that we have talked for years. it must be weird to call them up and talk like before suddenly in all these years..pretending like there were no drift between us, adn hoping they would still the same, and sangke they still keep u dear in their heart..but luckily, naz is still the same. the conversation was like a piece of me that i was looking for me to complete the puzzle..one of our topic was the incident yesterday, and again it made me realised, ...:

lilacbloome: susahnye lahai nak jadi baik
pheyra: mmg pon
pheyra: come to think of that kan
pheyra: meh aku nak luah perasaan kat kau, sebelom aku luah perasaan kat blog aku
lilacbloome: haha sila2
pheyra: ok, aku, mmg generous and thotful orgnye
pheyra: when i found or find sumthing interesting, aku suke share them with my anybody yg close or within reach ngan aku la kan at that time
pheyra: so, bende lagu tu, kan very meaningful kan, yang kat blog aku tu
pheyra: aku print out a few, and pas kat org yang hampir ngan aku kat sini lah
pheyra: kalau lah, cin kat ofis aku ni paham
pheyra: aku sure kasi deirang gak
pheyra: but, masalahnye, aku pas la kat sorang hamba Allah ni
pheyra: which, aku dah agak tak gune bagi die pon, konfirm die buang
pheyra: tapi, hell,bagi je lah
pheyra: i was expecting for die tu rase betape agungnye tuhan cam aku rase
pheyra: pastu, aku tanye la die, die nak buat ape dgn bende tu, just wanna know la since my first thot die akan buangpheyra: then aku ckp"i think u r gonna throw it"
pheyra: then die cakap,"ha tau pun"
lilacbloome: whoa oke
pheyra: pastu die tanye aku balek pe aku akan buat"for me, aku akan tampal kat dinding so depan sejadah aku so dat everytime bile pas akus emayang, aku akan senang bace"
pheyra: pastu die question aku balek,"u gimme all this, u buat ke bende yang sepatutnye?"
pheyra: i was like, ek eh..aku mcm ckp la "u are in no position to preech or tanye me kan"
pheyra: pastu die ckp balek,"then, u r in no position to give me all this"
pheyra: i was like hellooo, i'm just trying to share something here
pheyra: kalau aku lah kan, penagih dadah ke bapak ayam ke kasi aku bende camtu, aku certainly wud appreciate it
pheyra: pastu, die pulangkan kat aku balek tau, then aku ckp" naah, im giving it to u(yelah kite kan khalifah di muke bumi) so i dah lepas tanggungjawab, kalau u nak buang, u buang sendiri. then i just leave, die pon leave, aku tatau la lah die amek ke, die biarkan je kat situ..
pheyra: oh well
pheyra: aku mcm tak sentap, but mcm sedih, because aku dah kenal die for so longgg mcm aku ngan kau lah, org pandai lak tu...tapi bile dah sombong nan bodoh ni.aku kesian lah..what a waste
pheyra: aku tau la kan aku pon byk dosa, tapi it was not intention to berdakwah ke ape..saje to share because i find it interesting
pheyra: aku tatau lah, i basically like grew up same same ngan die
lilacbloome: maybe dia misinterpret intentions kau
pheyra: study same same
pheyra: so, bile dah besar besar ni, dah kerje sumer. die mcm chang onto this bodoh sombong type la
pheyra: i just donno way, izzit this is die nye way to rebel of how die nye life has turn out to be?
pheyra: kalau aku not being a good friend kan, aku lame dah mcm,lantak kau la bile die started to change dulu
pheyra: so, i being a good friend, mcm ko pon tau kan u know me quite well, aku tak kesah kawan ngan sape sape, n aku tak kan judge of how u r now, i always hold on to r good qualities dah i've known dulu
pheyra: so, aku tak de lah loose hope kat die
pheyra: although sumtimes die nye acts and attitude now buat aku like"oh ok, "mcm terdiam kan
pheyra: i always make my self bleive,"ok tu bukan dia"..tapi yesterday incident, buat aku mcm "haih, tere's no hope, tuhan jyang boleh tolong die skang"
pheyra: u get what i mean x?
lilacbloome: yes2
lilacbloome: tahlah fira, to some ppl it's an insult
lilacbloome: lagi2 kalau yg mak bpk pun lebey krg jugak
lilacbloome: or it's a rebel la
lilacbloome: xpela, not ur lost pun. u've done ur part
pheyra: kau faham jenis yang mcm org org pas kampung bodoh ni
pheyra: yang, ckp beriye iye, hukum hakam sane sini
lilacbloome: hahah
pheyra: tapi die sendiri tak tau
pheyra: kau faham x?
lilacbloome: hmm
lilacbloome: tau2
pheyra: ha mcm tu la
lilacbloome: hmm
lilacbloome: so back to family raisings la i guess
lilacbloome: tu ler komen aku
pheyra: aku kene makan atarax tau mlm tadi sbb memikirkan maslah ini
lilacbloome: pengaruh kuat 2 je, family and peers
lilacbloome: personally for me lah kan
lilacbloome: aku ingat satu je besides God lah
pheyra: ?
lilacbloome: aku perempuan, so dosa aku sebahagiannya ditanggung mak bpk aku.
lilacbloome: jadi memandangkan aku sgt sygkan diorg, aku cubala mengurgkan dosa sbyk mungkin
lilacbloome: kalau org xde agama, tp nak belaja xpe
lilacbloome: tp mostly yg jadi mcm tu
lilacbloome: bukan x tau hukum-hakam
lilacbloome: x nak ikut je
lilacbloome: as simple as that my dear fira
lilacbloome: but hope is still there
lilacbloome: no matter what
pheyra: tapi mcm mane pulak, org ni die nampak secare lahirriah nye mcm tau hukum hakam
pheyra: pgi masjid tunggang tonggek
pheyra: tapi, hati umpawa gelap, jiwa bagaikan mati
pheyra:marahkan anak org sebab taktau hukum hakam, tp anak sendiri tak pas semayang, anak yang dijadikan contoh kepada anak yang kecundang tu yang sebenarnye buat bende yang same di belakang kesedaran dia?
lilacbloome: itu hipokrit namanya
lilacbloome: sama je
pheyra: at to a point, aku rase haayz yang tunggang langgang kat U.S minum pejadah seumr, lagi terang hati nya umpama nian
pheyra: wahhhh very the asma kan
pheyra: aahah
lilacbloome: haha
lilacbloome: tp harayz tuh dia suka soal sgt psl islam nih
lilacbloome: kdg2 aku x tau nak jwb
lilacbloome: benda2 yg mmg wajib tuh dia persoalkan
lilacbloome: tapi dia very good questioner la
lilacbloome: bole buat kat tersentak n terpk
pheyra: aku ckp la"ala harayz, aku rase aku kenal hati budi kau, aku tau ur hope and feras, aku kenal kaulame sgt"so aku cam ckp la, kau tanye sumer ni sbb actually, die nakk and sayang st kat islam, tapi tulah
pheyra: camne aku nak ckp ee?u know, when sumbudy tu has been chosen by god to be the mcm the baikest of all
pheyra: tuhan akan kasi die mcm dasyat gile dan byk gila dugaan
pheyra: tapi up some point bile die dpt overcome that dugaan, die akan jadi sgttt baik dr org lain
lilacbloome: heh perhaps
lilacbloome: tp some ppl sengaja carik dugaan
lilacbloome: so TERduga n kecundang
pheyra: i took this form kisah nabi la, sbb nabi muhammah ckp kat sahabat2 die kan, die lagi sayang this one guy dr shabat sahabat die yang lain
pheyra: and sahabat2 die sentap, sbab that guy tak same level pon ngan shabat sahabat nabi ni
pheyra: but then nabi explain, die lagi sayang that guy, coz that guy, tak penah tanye kbaikan kat nabi, tapi die tanya pasal kejahatan
pheyra: nabi ckp, org yang tau kejahatan, sebenarnye akan lebih tahu and appreciate kebaikan, dr org yang hany tahu kebaikan sahaja, org tulah sebenarnye alpa dan jiwa nya kosong
lilacbloome: it's true in a way
lilacbloome: thats y u learn frm mistakes
lilacbloome: tp amatlah rugi kalau kesilapan yg dia buat tu x dpt diterima oleh org lain kalau dia dah berubah sekalipun
pheyra: tu la pasal
lilacbloome: esp if kesilapan yg melibatkan org


Taking to naz was like a breath of fresh air..this is the kind of conversation we used to have..meaningful..and wise..all these years, i think i've hurt my self so bad, not because of circumstances, but because i chose it myself..u see, u can never change people, or being over protective to some people, sometimes u just need to let them be, and let them learn by their own..i know, it's hard to see the people u hold closed to ur heart to go the way that u really don't want them to be..but what can u do bout it?it's their lives, they decide what they want for their lives..u can't seem to try to make the world a better place and protect everyone to go to the way that u don't want them to just because u've been there and lucky u, u managed to pull out..and because of that, u are afraid, they would go the same cursed way but unable to pull out?wake up!i realised now, that i am in no power to do that...phewh!!ni dah betul betul blog nih..tapi i thank god, i think if not because of that incident, i will never be awake, i might still be living in the solemn world, the world of loose hope and uncertainties, almost a world of fantasies, where i wasn't belong. i know i am much worth than that..what have i done?tapi tulah, people who fell and rise up from their mistakes, org tu org yang berjaye kan..but it a sense of friendship it made me realised, a true friend are a friend who actually was like an inch away no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A friend is never farther away than needing her can reach. When you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to walk it for yourself, your friend will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.I forgot about i all these years, and im happy i'm not that late to realise it now..i'm so much worthy, tapi aku tak perasan, i've sold my dignity and patronized my own wisdom..sheeshh, but hey,when we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joy or sorrow that lay ahead.It takes years of experiences and a very good judgement to manouver the rough waters.I'm glad i have learned the experience.Thank God!

"Di suatu malam dari malam-malamku..Aku tidak tahu apa yang menimpa diriku wahai tuhan..Kegelapan memenuhi diriku wahai Tuhan..Bumi dan Langit dirasakan sempit..Dan hatiku tidak menjumpai cahaya..Dan air mataku sentiasa mengalir wahai Tuhanku..Aku ingkar dan dosa-dosa besar..Dan sesungguhnya aku dalam kesedihan yang amat..Dibelenggu oleh dosa-dosa, wahai Tuhan..Dan adakah layak keampunan buat orang yang berdosa?..Orang yang sentiasa dalam noda, Wahai Tuhan..Engkau yang menjadikanku..Mengasisihiku dan mengurniakanku rezeki..Wahai Tuhan, Engkau selalu bersama-samaku..Tetapi aku jauh daripadaMu..Dan aku berjalan pada jalanku Ya Allah..Dan pada hari ini wahai Tuhan, aku kembali..Daripada kegelapan di belakang batasan-batasan agama..Dan hatiku kecewa dan jalanku bingung..Dan aku telah tenggelam tetapi aku tidak menyedari..Tiada penyelamat bagiku melainkan Engkau..Tiada penyelamat dan tiada penyelamat melainkan Engkau..Wahai Tuhanku.. Wahai Tuhanku..."

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Firash winks
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

fira wrote:

sob sob, call me sissy, tapi tentang kebesaran Allah dan kekerdilan diri ini, aku mmg sensitif la..sob sob..herm, to ally mac beal fan(aku one of them) u might remember ade satu lagu ni, however i can't seem to upload that song, coz i found it on Asma's blogspot.click on her and u guys listen to it.kat sini, i'll paste up the lyrics and the meanings. Well, aku browse tru a few blogs of my frens', came across Asma's(my ex-stfian) then perasan the melody of the song mcm kat one of the song kat citer Ally Mac Beal.tapi in a foreign language, but knowing Asma', who is wayyy different form Kerel(u uh u ol, die adek kerel), mesti arabic ni..scroll down under, nampak the lyrics,..then the meanings..pas bace the meaning, terase kerdil ye diri ini dan rase malu sgt dengan tuhan, rase mcm nak lari ke nearest masjid skang and menangis, dan memohon keampunan yang amat sgt..haih,astargfirullahhalazimallazilahuwalhaiyulkaiyum...i cannot speak now..rase nak balek rumah la skang...rase nak turn back time and serve myself to God..tuhan tau tak yang betape aku sayang kat Dia, and how i never meant to hurt Him..haih... aku nak balik...Click here

Fi lailateen minal layali..
Lastu adri ma taraani..
Dzhulmatun taghmuruni ya Rabb..
Al ardhu dhoqats was samaa'..
Wa qalbi ma raffa dhiya'..
Wa tamdzata yabki Ya Ilahi..
Ya Ilahi, ya Ilahi, ya ilahi, ya Ilahi..'
Asoitu wa zanbuka bik..
Wa inni fi huzni aasif..
Muqayyadun bidzanbi ya Rabb..
Fahal yastahiku ya Ilahi `afumujirma..
bidzdzunubi Ya ilahi..
Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi..
Antal ladzi khalaqtani..Rahimtani wa razaqtani..
Dauman ya Rabbi qad kunta mai'e..
Lakinnani na'aitu ank..
Naseetu ma qad kaana lak..
Wasiltu fi tareeqi ya Ilahi..
Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi, Ya Ilahi..
Walyauma ya
Rabbi a'ud min zulmatin khalfalhadud..
Falqalbumun kasirun wa tarfi hi aier..
Waanal ghariku fala araa ila siwaka li munkidza..
La manja wa la manja illa anta..

Translation:
Di suatu malam dari malam-malamku..
Aku tidak tahu apa yang menimpa diriku wahai tuhan..
Kegelapan memenuhi diriku wahai Tuhan..
Bumi dan Langit dirasakan sempit..
Dan hatiku tidak menjumpai cahaya..
Dan air mataku sentiasa mengalir wahai Tuhanku..
Aku ingkar dan dosa-dosa besar..
Dan sesungguhnya aku dalam kesedihan yang amat..
Dibelenggu oleh dosa-dosa, wahai Tuhan..
Dan adakah layak keampunan buat orang yang berdosa?..
Orang yang sentiasa dalam noda,
Wahai Tuhan..
Engkau yang menjadikanku..
Mengasisihiku dan mengurniakanku rezeki..
Wahai Tuhan,
Engkau selalu bersama-samaku..
Tetapi aku jauh daripadaMu..
Dan aku berjalan pada jalanku Ya Allah..
Dan pada hari ini wahai Tuhan, aku kembali..
Daripada kegelapan di belakang batasan-batasan agama..
Dan hatiku kecewa dan jalanku bingung..
Dan aku telah tenggelam tetapi aku tidak menyedari..
Tiada penyelamat bagiku melainkan Engkau..
Tiada penyelamat dan tiada penyelamat melainkan Engkau..
Wahai Tuhanku..
Wahai Tuhanku...

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Firash winks
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fira wrote:


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Firash winks
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

fira wrote:

last saturday,moi ikut mon chere pegi service motor die..since tempat service tu kat pekan bawah je my apartment kan(apartment aku happening ok!!)..tapi it was 6pm, so byk kedai nak tutup dah(biaselah, ni kan kat austin,texas)..i lurveeee joyriding with him!!..sebab angin kuat and paleng best, leh harass shah...hahahaha..i likkeee ..bagus la ade camera phone ni..u'll never miss a moment

YAY!!tudung terletak dgn cantiknye!!

tudung serabai balek oleh gust of winds...ahhh~~

yippeeee~~~~~

tgh harrass shah..kinky tak muke??

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Firash winks
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Firash winks
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Friday, June 10, 2005

THE BIRTHDAY MAN BOY!!!

Last tuesday was shah's 26th birthday.I, being the sweetest sweetheart last minute surprise birthday dinnersince tak sempat beli hadiah despite the fact yang aku bapak bz!!!..it went well althogh everything was in a rush..I would like to thank first and foremost, kak aya, my dearest admin asst for helping me to run here and there(sorry tak dpt bayar OT),thanks to the F&B manager of the restaurant and also the crew for making it splendidly happened..so anyway:

Time: 9 pm
Date: 6th June 2005
Venue: Restoran Berputar Sri Angkasa, Menara Alor Star

1.Driving,birthday boy jadi driver 2 & 3.Boring faces still thinking this is just a usual dinner reservation(tapi die still tak perasan, our table je yang exclusively decorated siap ade lilin..duhh)

Untill suddenly.......

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!

chihihi, sweet tak aku?bile dah abes melantak tu, sampai ilang vouge sumer..aku tunggu punye la tunggu, bil lah the crew nak kuarkan shah nye cake secare surprisenye..shah muke dah bosan bosan,aku mcm tak se'bubbly' as usual, sebab worried sick takut tak jadi kan..then tetibe, the whole restaurant nye lampu dim, pastu the pianist start to say sumthing,which i can only hear table 13(our table lah) then the F&B manager herself, came out with the cake...chihihi.aku pulak yang tak larat, accompanied by the birthday song by the pianist..the whole crew sumer keluar to watch the 'scene'..shah muke cam selenge selenge, like mix emotion camtu...leh aku tau, kalau die pompuan die sure nanges..just sebab mlm tu die pakai suit je, trus control..hehhee..then like the whole menara nyanyi the birthday song to him and applaud.tapi yang keji nye, it was an ice cream cake, so dlm si shah control control, lame sgt die tersengih sengih kat org ramai, cake tu hampir cair..ceh..but, the sweet F&B manager yang apologize pulak..chihihi..tanyway, that night was great and memorable..again, aku yang terer ni managed to pull a wonderful event for my sweet darling..aku mmg sweet dan romantic, aku tau..patut la aku tak dijadikan lelaki, sebab nanti ramai sgt anak dara yang pengsan2 nak kan aku..hehhe..i'm capable of doing anything to make my sayang happy, oh did i tell u guys i made the bouquet with the baci choc terselit2, and teddy bear in the middle,with big silver ribbon by myself?wihtou any experience at all??and in just 30 minutes!!i'm so proud myself..yap, i'd do anything for him, from arranging a bouequet of flowers to buat curtain utk die..mind you, i did't just buy and send the curtain to tailor, i even went to the hardware store to buy the cirtain rail, and drill the wall up, and screw the rail in, all by my self, 10 feet high..mase tu shah outstation for 2 weerks..chihi..i can cook the greatest, kari,kurma,or anything, u name it, up to repairing all the electrical appliances in his house,wiring and stuffs and of course my major, saving my baby dari diserang creepy crawlies"cibi cibi, lipas!!cibi cibi,labah labah(yang kecik kaki cam benang tu)..eh cibi!!ape tu???!!"..just call my name, and i'll b there to save him..hehehh...all without experience, sumer main belasah je, and promptly..wanna how and why?it's the love...yerp, love can make people do things that they don;t have any idea of..chihi..untung ok sape dapat aku..superhuman tau..sumer boleh!!just name it!!(kempen kempen)..chihi, so anyway,

"Sayang, Happy 26th Birthday!! May lady luck always with you.Semoga dimurahkan rezeki,panang umur dan sihat sejahtera..I LOVE YOU~~~~"

the rest of the pictures(yerp, I'M FAT!!):

waiting for the lift, my first vain attempt to where tudung to occasions which obviously has failed,,haiyoo!!nampak sgt amateur..berkecah tudung aku

menara alor star(tak nampak lah gelap, sorry)

The pianist that accompanied us

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Firash winks
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shah wrote:

erm menu untuk hari ni ada kari ayam+kentang+bendi, telur dadar, sambal belacan, tempe, and pucuk paku. semuanya sedap especially kari yang cibi masak, everything was made with love and passion, that what makes simple things become so delightful. Plus having lunch with the person u love most. right cibi?

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Firash winks
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

fira wrote:

aahh~~~ aku dah habes presentation~~~sgt lega~~siap kene puji!!ahaks!!!

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Firash winks
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fira wrote:

haiyo horor horror~~~..aku ade final presentation kul 2 ni..mcm mcm feeling ade..b4 this aku rileks ajer..tak rase ape ape..siap slides leh buat las minute gile..tadi baru siap..pastu satu screen shot tertinggal lak..tgh tunggu email..jap lagi baru nak print and bind..haih..skang ni, aku rase nak terberak, nak termuntah..bukan butterfly je ade, segale burung peacock, zoo sumer ade dlm perut aku ni...haih~~menanti detik dan waktu ni, menyakitkan hati ler.keji!!..haih, seb baik YM nye new release ni sumer lagu best best...haihh~~horror horror~~, u all doakan utk i..dah la si shuid ni org ckp very the unpredictable..aku saje je bat slides nampak grand, kang die tanye nye aku bukan bukan, mampus aku nak jawab...dah la aku surang je buat keje networking, org lain sumer buat programming...haihh hororr horror, aku nak type pun mcm tak daye dah..dah la, nak berangan,lagi menenangkan...

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Firash winks
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Monday, June 06, 2005

fira wrote:

today super bz!!baru sempat bukak tenet ni ha..pagi tadi pegi site semua..pastu last minute preparation tuk tonite shah's surprise besday dinner..(takpe, die pun tgh bz gile skang, takkan bace blog ni untuk sementara waktu ni,,chihi)pastu ngan slide preparation tuk rabu ni...argg argg..anyway, my family and i went for a shopping last wikens..best giller!!will update bile dah ade mase keh!!..bye peeps~~~to sayang, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

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Firash winks
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Friday, June 03, 2005

yes kawan kawan!!saya sudah bertudung!!!, well at least i'm trying to..walaupun ade kalenye terbang jua sehelai kain tu..well ppl, changes are hard..but i'm trying my best to purified my soul la kan..sbb to me tudung is not a trend..kalau hati dah bersih,suci sumer kan..nanti keinginan bertudung tu datang dgn sendirinye, sbb u know u have to obliged the rules that God has layed down for us..and every rules they are the reason underneath it, i believe islam is a very nice,sweet,practical and reasonable religion..once u understand the reason..u'll be willingly to obliged the rule..islam ni halus dan berseni, tu kekadang org susah nak paham..so anyway, as some of u might know i'm going for my hajj in this december, insyaAllah...walaupun aku anak yang tak guna, aku taknak la membazer duit mak ayah aku berbelas-belas ribu utk aku gi haji saje sbb mak aku suruh kan...i can if i want, tapi aku mmg nak mendekatkan diri dgn tuhan..cewahhh..from my experience of pegi umrah twice(ttp mcm ni kan), mekah and midanah is the most peacefual and tranquil place i have ever been..i have this kindda,overwhelmed feeling when i'm there..aku nanges bile ade dekat ngan kubur nabi..i feel like, i'm very near to god, dan kekasihNya..subhanallah..lagipun, i've heard sumwhere, bile kite berwukuf di araf..tuhan akan turun to the lowest level of langit and say,"look, there are my ppl"..and GOD!,that is the the nearest u can get to got...dah la dosa aku mcm 44 kali ganda buih2 di lautan kan..kalau raihan kate dosa depa sebanyak buih di lautan, aku ni apetah lagi?haih~~~~words can't depict my feelings...hanye maha suci tuhan je yang tau..so anyway, aku on the journey of soul purificationla kan..sbb aku pun teringin nak jadi tetamu tuhan...tp, changes can't be in overnite...so peeps, pray for me yah!!!

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Firash winks
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Thursday, June 02, 2005

fira wrote(mmg selama ni pun mmg aku je yang tules):

u must be thinking I am a pathethic human being sampai leh sumbit banyak entries blog per day kan..tapi hakikatnya, project dah habes, mmg membosankan ye duduk di ofis ni..dah la shah takde...:U..nak tau betape bosannye ofis ni, sila lihat gambarajah di bawah:

ini ialah saya tetido ketika sedang configure router!!

inilah aktiviti kami...uncle dino, ade di biliknya ketika kejadian ini berlaku..siap kekadang, leh gi ofis die, bukak sofa bed tido, ketika die sedang mengadap komputer die..mse tu, asistant manager yang bodoh tu belum kerja lagi....skang die dah ade, jgn mimpi okay..I HATE U!

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Firash winks
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shah left for kl yesterday for meetings after lunch..manage to merendek dgn die from morning to lunch before he went off...haih~~me feeling lonely~~..seb baik mak ngan ayah are coming over today..ETA 4pm..and guess what, aku tak mop rumah lagi!!.horrorr~~ .lunch ni baru nak mop..mak and kak zana are very particular about cleanliness and hygenic thingy..aku biase la.. simbol kemalasan yang abadi...harusla bile mak ayah aku dtg je baru rumah tu nak bermop segale kan..chiihihi..tapi takpe, aku superhuman dan hipokrit..i'll make sure by the time they reach my apartment semua tiptop!..memandangkan semalam mc kerana ingin merendek dgn shah for the last time before he went off, arinih tetibe byk keje..dah la laptop takde, si aku punye assistant manager yang SANGKE BOSS tu bawak balek kl, dahla bukan laptop die..BOSS sebenar office ni kasi kat aku utk senang buat keje keje troubleshooting..tapi aku ade la desktop aku sendiri, tapi RAM mcm babi, seb baik gaji dah masuk arinih so boleh beli RAM baru..talking about aku nye sangke boss from hell ni..eee tolong la, it's a mistake aku kenalkan die kat office ni..yes, aku yang recommend die and i'm regretting it now..si shah beli hardisk tray dari die, and mase tu pulak die tanye shah ade keje kosong tak, aku saje suh die try kat company aku ni..sekali dpt kan, jadi assistant manager gaji 2100 jahh~~pastu berangan habes bos..plisla. sbb kebetulan a week after die kerje, boss office ni kene gi vietnam..dah la konfiden gile ckp kat sorang admin kat sini "nanti uncle D dah balek vietnam to take over branch sana, i jadi boss sini"..la hai, like hello~~~mementang admin tu nampak diamm je, padehal belakang kumpat gak..chihii..dahla, dapat keje ni trough aku, satu hapak thank you pun tak ckp, dulu konon mase baru nak mintak keje, nak belanje aku makan seafood lah kat kuala perlis..bodoh!..aku nak kumpat die dgn lebeh lanjut boleh la, tapi nanti blog aku jadi cerpen..so kesimpulannye, die sux, mcm sial..kalau lah kau tau, satu ofis ni tak suke kau...dah la undermind boss sebenar ofis ni..pastu nak ridicule2 aku..pastu die jenes cina racism ni tau..keji,, org lain dlm ofis ni pon cina gak..sumer ok je...takde racism lansung..pastu nak tukar environment kiterang kat sini..tak kasi chat lah ape lah...haloooo uncle dino(boss sini) pun tak kesah ok!pastu suke kipas boss boss lain..pastu yang lagi lahanat, die ingat bapak aku org2 biase je?tu la aku cakap cina racism ni, mmg la ni company cina, tapi bukan cina mcm kau bodoh!!bapak aku one of board directors ok!!..aku takkan la nak hebah kat die aku anak bos aku anak bos..kalau aku bukan anak bos pon tak payah la ridicule aku kan..mase bapak aku datang kedah office, saje nak observe kan, die tak respect lansung..bodoh!..las las, recently ade sorang engineer sini cakap pasal sumthing bout my dad la..then si bodoh ni ckp"eh ur father one of the directors ke?"..aku pon ape lagi, inilah masenye "ha ah, yes he is"..muke trus berubah ok..baru kau tau..ee benci la ade org bodoh mcm ni..dah la qualification diploma je..sok kau grad, aku lagi qualified dr kau ok!!..kau tak tau ke kau jadi assitant manager kat sini bodo bodo je, sebab kat kedah ni setakat ofis kecik, cam kedai runcit je..bunyi cam grand la assistant manager tu, tapi kalau kau balek hq..kau hanye lah pangkat technician biase..hahahbodoh!!malas nak layan org org perasan lagi sangka ni..kalau aku jahat dan masih berdendam ngan kau, lepas aku grad nanti, aku suh bapak aku jadikan aku, bos kepada bos kepada bos kau..biyar aku lak ridicule kau!!!hahaha..bodoh punye org!!

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Firash winks
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

while wasting my time utilising the broadband facility provided by the company for me to actually finish my job, i found a very very interesting prayer..i guess, my time not wasted after all..i almost shed a tear ...it definitly has touched my soul..and shah's too..(memandangkan kiterang super soulmate kan up to point we thought that we are actually a conjoint twin tapi that delivery seagulls tu salah deliver..chihihi)..so here goes, may the Al-Mighty grant our prayer..

Oh Tuhan, seandainya telah Kau catatkan
Dia milikku, tercipta untuk diriku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan

Ya Allah, ku mohon
Apa yang telah Kau takdirkan
Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku
Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku
Pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah
Beri kekuatan jua harapan
Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya
Semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa
Ku pasrah kepada Mu
Kurniakanlah aku
Pasangan yang beriman
Bisa menemani aku
Supaya ku dan dia
Dapat melayar bahtera
Ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pengasih
Engkau sahaja pemeliharanku
Dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini
Jangan Engkau biarkan ku sendiri
Agarku bisa bahagia
Walau tanpa bersamanya
Gantikanlah yang hilang
Tumbuhkan yang telah patah
Ku inginkan bahagia
Di dunia dan akhirat
PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segala... "

-Amin-

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Firash winks
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