* the love nest of him and her *

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

My Best Friend's Wedding

ahhhh it has been 7 years since i last saw him.he still look the same,and laugh the same, and of coz kalut as usual..(eh i think, complexion ko dah canteklah, ke sbb ko make-up gak?ahaks)..hehe, and thank god, im a tad taller than him now,tthihi..i went to his reception and he looked all bliss and happy and whatever words can describe JOY with his wonderful lovely bride..demm dat's sumthing i ought to be jealous about..sbb aku nak kawen gakk!!haha..hermm, lame gak ehh tak jumpe..7 yearsss..but it feels, just yesteday, i was upset about sumthing, and he wud put his hand around my shoulder and said, "jom ice-cream!"..i had a hard time growing up(still are) and i guess because of that i always keep myself private and can never seems to luahkan my perasaan to anyone, kept it all inside..maybe it shows when im sad, and i really hate it when ppl start asking,"r u okay?" and all sort of those coaxing thingy..but when actually, i really wish i could have someone to talk to..with him, he knows me best..as i said, he always knew when i'm upset and all he did was just, look into my eyes for like 5 seconds and "jom ice-cream"..and i'm all gooood..rase mcm dah telepathy all my sadness..eheh, thank you for always being there mate..had such a wonderful child+teenage years with ya mate!..heh, good old times..we were very close indeed, he had my back, and likewise..we wud spent countless hours together, if not on the phone, hanging out,kadang tak buat ape, duduk je kat bench keliling elevator kat concourse KLCC tu..what a waste of time eh?but back then, it was the best thing to do kalau tak nanti mcm cacing kepanasan kat rumah, feeling incomplete..ever heard a saying something like,"a best friend can sit for hours or day long on a swing not talking to each other but when balek, rase mcm dah borak lame dah bla bla bla" sumthing like that..i forgot what it's actual words..he was my confidant, my shoulder to cry on, my devi's advocate, my best friend..well, to put it into picture, we were like anjali and rahul in kuch kuch hota hai..i watched that movie when i was in form 3 and he was in form 5..during that year school holidays, i felt like it's gonna be our last holidaay together,told him,"lepas ni kau will have a lots of time by yourself, jgn lupe aku eh"..he put his hand on my shoulder and said,"dun worry fira, no matter what happen, u'll still come first.kan aku dah janji dlm komuter"..we made a pack when were stuck in the komuter about not having a partner if one of us are not having any partner..heh, janji budak budak,senang la cakap ek, u'll never know what's gonna happen to your life next can..it's indeed our last holiday together..he found the girl of his dream, and decided to devote his life for her..and u know what happen to me..i was kinda broken back then..upset because there'll be no more ice-cream when im down,no more laughing of stupid things, no more well ya know, things u do with ur bestest buddy..tapi, i grew up from it..im a girl, of coz i can understand, when ur love are so very close to another girl..come on, platonic best friend, can never last la kan..it's either, u fell in love with each other and get married, u fell in love then u confess than feeling all weird than drift apart and it's gonna hurt because u were so comfortable with each other, u'll find someone of ur dream and get married then drift apart jugak or one of u is gay..ahaks..oh well, for what it's worth..i'm always happy and proud for you..life has never been any bad for you..alhamdulillah..good job, good life, wonderful wife..cantek pula juga pandai..kalau datuk k kate siti nurhaliza ade 9 ciri istimewa, i'm sure..his wife ade 900 of that..am i exxaggerating?hehe, taklah, since aku pernah very close to him, i know his just the perfect girl for him..KUDOS!..Sayangku Is,(he always wanted me to call him that after the cerekarama 'sayangku is' backkk then, tapi i was like eurghhh, tapi skang kasi la can,now and only)..I wish all the best in your life a ahead, and semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu..life has turned out really well for you and i wish that will always be..amin..
He sent me an email with a poem in it long time ago out of the blue before he die abes sekolah dulu...it was really sweet.i have always wanted to reply that email with this song..but being a lazy ass, aku tak pernah nak terhantar pon, asyik pending je..so aku tules la dalam post ni...he must thot that aku tak thotful, tp sebenarnye, i've printed it and put it in a special file in a box, with all our pictures and cards and etc he ever gave me to me..share it with u guys,once i terjumpe the box(demm aku mmg tak thotful,hahah)

Sugar Ray- Someday

Someday when my life has passed me by
i lay around and wonder why
you were always there for me
One way
in the eyes of the passer by
i look around for another try
and fade away
Some say better things will come our way
no matter they try to say
u were always there for me
someway when the sun begins to shine
i hear a song from another time
and fade away

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Firash winks
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